#demonic attack

August 28, 2020

I received an email about a week ago from a woman who wrote just one sentence. “What are the specific things I should look out for that would be signs pointing to a spiritual attack?” That statement she made reminded me of why I started this website. There are a lot of signs or symptoms that indicate a spiritual or diabolical attack. In this article, I will concentrate on one, and then write subsequent articles describing the others. I was attacked by witchcraft, so the issues I am going to write about will come from my lived experiences, and be specific to those demonic attacks. But not everyone is spiritually attacked, so some of the things I experienced will also apply to suffering in general. For example, all kinds of people go through depression or have anxiety so they will understand that part of my suffering.

People who are under a spiritual attack will have certain things happen to them that didn’t happen to me, and visa versa. Depending on the circumstances leading up to, or surrounding the attacks, each person will experience these afflictions in different degrees. But God never gives us more than we can handle. Anyone who has suffered an attack from the enemy will be able to identify with what I am saying, and then apply it to their particular situation. This knowledge is going to console you. I say this with great confidence because I had no one to help me. Not even priests understood what was wrong with me. In the beginning, I had no idea what was happening. But I eventually had to consider whether or not it was demonic, because nothing else made sense. I think that God allowed me to suffer this way for many reasons. One reason is so that I can help other people who are suffering in the way I have. No one understood what I was going through, and that added immensely to the mental and emotional effects of the attacks. So, I want those people who are struggling with an attack to know that I understand their suffering, and I know intimately what you are going through because I went through it too. I am sharing my story with the hope that it will help others get through this time in your life a little bit easier.

The first sign I want to talk about is desolation, but I have to clarify a few things so that this is clear. Christians experience consolation and desolation throughout life. The simplest explanation is that consolation is being able to feel God’s consoling presence within, and desolation is not being able to feel it. This is a part of the spiritual life that no one can escape. In times of consolation, there is a loving communication between God and the soul that brings it to love the Lord more intensely. And in times of desolation, this communication is withdrawn, which, in the beginning, is perceived as a lack of God’s love for the soul. The result is the same because consolation and desolation help a person come to know and love God in a whole new way. So this process is good, even though desolation hurts. In a spiritual attack, which God allows for our betterment, desolation is distorted by the devil. It is amplified and used as a weapon against us. So in this context, desolation is a sign of a spiritual attack. Now that I have made that clear I can move on.

Desolation: A temporary darkening of the mind and disturbance of the will and emotions, permitted by God to purify the souls of his followers. It may be caused by the evil spirit or brought on by a variety of other causes, but it is always purposeful, namely to withdraw a person’s affections from dwelling on creatures and bring them closer to the Creator.

Desolation is an almost unbearable darkness, an emptiness so deep that every waking moment is spent in mourning. This is a horrible suffering. But it is how the Lord brings us to love Him most profoundly. It is how He teaches us to stop looking at ourselves and look at Him. Jesus leaves us because He wants us to experience Him physically. In my case, I was not fully aware of God’s presence in me until I couldn’t feel it anymore. So Jesus grabbed my attention by retreating from me, and that automatically caused me to become aware of the lack of His presence in me; and in my life. That didn’t mean that Jesus wasn’t present anymore, only that I couldn’t feel Him anymore.

“How long, O Lord? Will you utterly forget me? How long will you hide your face from me? How long shall I harbor sorrow in my soul, grief in my heart day after day? How long will my enemy triumph over me? Look, answer me, O Lord, my God!”

After a while, I started to feel abandoned by God, and I wondered if He loved me. I didn’t understand what I did to make Him leave me, nor did I know why He let the enemy attack me so viciously. But these sufferings caused me to set out on a spiritual journey in search of my Jesus. He was all that mattered. So, desolation, even though it is a natural part of the spiritual life, can be used by the devil during a spiritual attack. But God is in control and no matter how much you think Jesus has left you, He is bring you closer and closer to Him during these spiritual attacks. There are moments when God consoles you, but they are brief and ignite an even greater desire in you to find Jesus. So, I think that this void that lives in us, during these spiritual attacks, is key. And I will go as far as to say, that Jesus has made us believe that He has abandoned us because He loves us, and He wants to be loved back. No matter how you are feeling, or what you are going through, remember that God is love. He is all good, and everything that He allows to touch our lives, no matter how difficult it may be, is for our greater good and His glory. So keep searching for Jesus, and when the time is right, He will set you free.

This morning at 5:02 am, I woke up from a spiritual attack that came in the form of something I haven’t experienced for a really long time. I laid there in bed for a moment shocked, scared, and angry all at once. But I also felt unclean and really disgusted. After coming to my senses, I quickly got out of bed and began to pray and rebuke.

I opened up my Bible app and found that it was already opened to Genesis 35. I didn’t know what I was about to read. I just knew that I needed to. And the Lord spoke immediately 2 verses in, giving me this:

Genesis 35:2

King James Version

2 Then Jacob said unto his household, and to all that were with him, Put away the strange gods that are among you, and be clean, and change your garments:

“Put away the strange gods that are among you, and be clean, and change your garments.”

I immediately begin to repent for the idols that I’ve allowed myself to become defiled with— strange gods that I’ve been putting above God (social media, food, my phone, entertainment, laziness, and everything else that I know I’ve been giving so much of my time to). And then I asked God,

“Lord, how do I change my garments? What does that look like, and where do I even start?”

I don’t believe that I came across this scripture about changing my garments by coincidence because the moment leading up to the attack, in my dream, I heard my brother say, “Nene (what my family calls me) needs to change.” As soon as he said those words, I was attacked and it literally felt as if my soul was departing from me to hell. I for real thought I was about to face death. I couldn’t move or speak or do anything but only lay there hopelessly, fighting my hardest to call out “Jesus!”

I didn’t just stop at verse 2, but I kept reading until I ended up in Genesis 37 where God gave me a second scripture:

Genesis 37:29

King James Version

29 And Reuben returned unto the pit; and, behold, Joseph was not in the pit; and he rent his clothes.

“Rent His clothes.”

It’s hard to explain but I felt like God was trying to show me something and that He wanted me to look up what it meant to rent one’s clothes. I’ve always come across people doing that mostly in the Old Testament, and I had an idea of what it meant. But I believe that the Lord wanted to deepen my understanding of it. And so this is what I found:

“The tearing of one’s clothes is an ancient tradition among the Jews, and it is associated with mourning, grief, and loss... More important than outward shows of grief are true sorrow for sin and genuine repentance of the heart. The prophet Joel relayed God’s command: ‘Rend your heart and not your garments’ (Joel 2:13). The One who sees the heart requires more than external ritual. And the command came with a promise: ‘Return to the LORD your God, for he is gracious and compassionate, slow to anger and abounding in love, and he relents from sending calamity” (Joel 2:13; cf. Psalm 34:18).’”

Through all of this, the Lord gave me the answer to my question about how to change my garments:

“If to rent your garments means to rent your heart, to change your garments is to change your heart. “

In other words, it’s to return your heart back to the Lord. He’s calling us to return our hearts back to Him— our first love.

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Joel 2:13

King James Version

Woman’s 10 Year Demon Horror.  

The 25-year-old woman says the demonic activity started in 2008 while she was still in grade 11, initially starting off with bouts of illness, stomach cramps and fainting before escalating, three years later whilst in college studying to become a travel consultant, into full blown physical attacks that resulted in cut marks on her body spontaneously appearing.

Despite numerous hospital admissions doctors were unable to diagnose the mystery affliction says the young woman with her only relief later coming from a prayer group that visited the hospital.

Found this interesting and wanted to share. More thoughts later.

👹 The Seven Levels of a Demonic Attack 👹

1.) Temptation

Is there a thought you’ve been entertaining instead of rejecting? One that you’ve told yourself is harmless because you haven’t acted on it yet?

2.) Infiltration

Has that thought become familiar? Has something that once made you uncomfortable stopped producing any reaction at all?

3.) Affliction

Are there persistent, multi-area problems in your life? Sickness, financial, relational, that natural solutions have never been able to resolve? Have you ever addressed them spiritually with the same seriousness you’ve addressed them with practically?

4.) Stronghold

Is there a lie about the Universe, spirituality, or about yourself that you’re no longer fighting? You’re just living inside it. Something that feels less like a belief and more like a fact?

5.) Oppression

Is there a pattern of behavior that repentance alone hasn’t broken? That comes back every time? That you’ve stopped being able to explain? That has started to feel like something being driven rather than chosen?

6.) Obsession

Has the untrue version of your identity become your personality? Is there a label: “failure,” “broken,” or “too far gone,” unwanted but that you answer to more readily than you answer to what the Universe itself has said about you?

7.) Full Bondage

Is there someone in your life that needs cleansing to surround them, not with advice, not with judgement, not with distance, but with the kind of sustained authoritative costly intercession that this level actually requires?

Note:

Every level required agreement to advance. Lower realms cannot take what isn’t given up. The lie was entertained long enough to open the door to take root. And the root is where the healing needs to take place, beyond the surface.

Finally, when the act of sin has been committed, it brings forth death: death of self-respect and death of feelings. It will also bring despair, anger, helplessness, hopelessness, guilt, condemnation, and vows never to do it again. It is a horrible price that Satan and his demons exact upon those deceived. First, they lead him by the nose into sin; then once committed, they condemn and attack him for being weak and despicable, The shame grows deeper and deeper.

December 16, 2025. Irvine, California, United States of America.