#deeply so

"Robby deserves to die"

"Robby is the Devil and deserves to Suffer for all of eternity for the crime of being mentally ill and displaying actual symptoms of said crisis.

Should I make a post about the Uchiha clan. I feel like the angles have all been both examined and glossed over at the same time. Mostly because every time someone tries to broach the topic they always get interrupted by the anti crowd and that turns into a separate discussion. I don’t fear them in the slightest, but I also know that to put all my thoughts together in one post is going to be a mile and a half long, and might not actually reach an audience in this fandom anyway?

Literary analysis and assay posts like that aren’t unusual for me in other fandoms, (hehe, just ask my Blue Exorcist peeps) but this one does seem oddly disinterested in that. Maybe because the series is broken up into far too many pieces that unless you’re actually looking for the whole parts you can’t see them all at the same time. But that’s also why I feel like posts examining all of that are invaluable. (And, strangely, other big shonen fandoms like one piece and bleach do not have this issue, or not as badly. I’m tempted to call it anti-intellectual behavior, because man are there some blatantly questionable, Did We Read/Watch The Same Thing? takes in here, easily on par with the Dudebro’s of the Berserk fandom, which IYKYK, but I digress.)

Idk. I have Plenty To Say About It, among other things, but at the same time, it’s… disheartening? Are we truly so far removed from the source material in the fandom that it has lost its meaning? There’s something to be said there about the absolute clusterfuck that is the bad characterization translations, studio Pierrot being incapable of doing animation that’s actually, yknow, animated, and the author’s own contributions to confusion, but I’ve been in fandoms far worse, and they didn’t seem to have quite the same level of….i don’t know how to articulate it, it’s not divisiveness, it’s just people taking things at face value and never running deeper with it, which is so very incredibly, frustratingly common in this fandom. Maybe it’s an age issue, but most of the fandom posters I find on here are 25-35, most the same age as me.

It’s also true that there are only so many points where the series itself invites you to look deeper, but that’s never stopped a tumblr fandom before.

🤷‍♀️ Naruto fandom be feeling very strange to me, as a “professional”, degreed fandom person. (Professional here Meaning I possess college level skills for literary writing and interpretation, and apply them in the lens of fandom, which has never done me wrong anywhere else. And yes that’s just my own definition, I’m not sure of another way to word it, partly cause I’m sick rn)

I’m not expecting anyone to chime in necessarily, but it does feel very lonely over here sometimes. It’s the same feeling as when I, autistic child I was, used to watch other kids play with toys in ways that completely boggled my brain because they would get so deeply attached to the notion that their velociraptor was a T rex that even if I tried to play along and pretend with them, they knew I didn’t believe it like they did and would get mad at me for doing something nebulously “wrong” because I somehow wasn’t believing in their imagination enough? It’s one thing to set aside reality for play, I do that all the time because it makes the brain happy to torment the dolls, and that’s what fanfic ultimately is for — but then it’s like. Oh, no, you actually believe that velociraptor is a T rex. Ok. Umm. Sure, while we are playing, I guess it can be? But it’s still a velociraptor. I can pretend it’s not, but I can’t believe it’s not.

#courtesy of the many pieces of media that feels wrong to kinkify and yet I cannot help myself

I can name some movies and video games. There's probably more, but this is off the top of my head.

Midsommar - because cults are awful and hot and awfully hot.

Get Out - because hypnosis and losing your body.

I'm counting 1984 as psychological horror here, just because it is so dystopian and falls very hard into my kinks.

Doki Doki Literature Club - because, sorry, someone literally rewriting your reality in order to make you fall in love with them??? 🥵 Resetting every single time it doesn't work and slowly distorting your world entirely??? 🥵

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