ouuhh yeah i feel pathetic mmmmmmmhm
#this is like the song#i can get by the days just fine but the niiiiights#neon trees anyone#no?#okay....#point is#lalalalala whatever ummmm. yeah#i guess im just really irritated with this person(?) (people??) in my.... friend....'s..? mutual's.... inbox#but i feel pathetic about it because its nothing i havent thought about MY crush#minus the unnecessary parts though i guess its all unnecessary#yeah feel like im kinda enamored with him and i feel i little bit obsessive but like#i would never just?? say that?? cause thats weird and creepy??#but im like#am i a bad person for thinking that way even privately?#i guess it just sucks cause im mentally ill and i KNOW im mentally ill and that really messes with my relationships with other people#but i know that i cant just accept that at face value and say nothing is ever my fault so im just like#im mad#im irritated#but then im like#am i a hypocrite?#would my crush also be creeped out by me if he knew how i felt about him?#probably#how can i start thinking normally#oh but i feel like that person doesnt really see him as a human being with really feelings#which is really infuriating#but obviously i respect my crush#but does that show?????#ughhhhhhhhh#this is all over the place#sorry
