#deancrit

you'll become satans bride—pray for mercy, get down on your knees.

see i love dean winchester. he’d do anything for his baby brother. he’s loving and fierce and practically raised sam as much as john did. but he’s also abusive. he’d kill anyone to save sam and also lay his life down for his brother but that means owning sam just as much. sam’s body and soul belong to dean. and he’s funny and he’s cute and he’s honorable and he saves people and he’s so fucking handsome and he has daddy issues and childhood trauma and eldest daughter syndrome and anger issues and abandonment issues and he sexualizes himself to control the beauty he’s been cursed with, flaunts it to his gain because that’s the way he’s been used as bait since he was a little kid. and yes he sometimes treats sam like shit--gaslights him, manipulates him. and he’s complicated, and he’s such a fucking good character.

and then there’s sam. there’s no doubt im biased towards him. sam’s the culmination of a long line of familial trauma, a boy with a streak of freak running through him--the grossness was always in his veins. a boy with powers he doesn’t understand, with a life he hates but a family he loves and too young to understand the loss and cycle that got them there. so he rebels and he tries to leave, once he makes it to flagstaff to escape the abuse and the life and dean takes the brunt of it, and when he runs away the second time, he’s told it’s for good. but he can’t escape his fate, so the loss of his father becomes his own and the brother beside him becomes his stronghold, and that means submitting, and that means sacrifice. returning to an abusive relationship of the person who needs him most and the person he needs the most. codependency. and he manipulates right back, lashes out violently to the abuse, hurting dean in the process, and warps himself darkly to his surroundings, and when the freakishness rises to the top, none of them can understand it, except for the devil of the god he’d been praying to all along. and he’s complicated and he’s such a fucking good character.