#dayninetyfive

It’s Friday though, which cheered me up. Fridays are my favourite day of the week, always have been.

And when you’re a teacher, you start living for your weekends away from school.

I had a better time with my younger students today. But my older students pissed me off a lot with being loud and not listening when I tried to explain their project guidelines to them.

So I put on a super annoying soundtrack of loud noises only children can hear to get back at them.

I know, I’m such an adult.

C convinced to join her after school dance class. I relented because it meant I could exercise earlier instead of doing my own dumb un-fun exercises on my app. Plus, I was promised an exercise video featuring Nina Dobrev from ‘The Vampire Diaries’.

Naturally, I said yes to Nina.

As it turns out, I have no rhythm whatsoever, and I’m from Africa. Do you know how insulting that is?

Not even Nina shakin her thang (and boy, she shook that thang) could cheer me up after failing hard at dancing and exercising. C was very encouraging afterwards, but I still felt pretty flat.

I’m hosting a movie marathon at my place tomorrow with my foreign colleagues. Of course, my apartment was filthy, so I had to do a little dusting, vacuuming and mopping.

I feel a bit nervous about hosting. This is the first time I’ve had a place of my own that was by enough to have people over. I never had that many friends growing up, so it’s still surreal for me knowing this many people who all live in the same city as me. I still can’t think of what movies I really want to watch that won’t be totally embarassing in front of other people.

Urgh, too much self-doubt.

While I got down on myself, X kept popping into my head while I vacuumed the floors. I told you - she seems to be my dark shadow on bad days.

It’s ironic because she used to be my ray of sunlight on good days and bad days before.

Where did it go so wrong?

I’m tired of thinking about her or feeling stressed or down about other things. I just wanna try and have some fun this weekend.