#dat rambles

We are the Fate that X wants to escape.

He was cursed to be the first BY US. And we keep doing it. He's still and probably will stay first in the rankings, until he actively removes himself from the narrative by force.

Episode 24 was all about "X reveals the truth" (also known as "a drunken philosophical discussions with your neighbor's dog") and while he certainly reveals plenty about Zero and Comission, we could already deduce most if not all of that information from what we saw. X simply confirmed it.

There IS, however, a certain truth that wasn't spoken aloud, that X had, in fact, SHOWN and never spoke out loud about. Is that the "Fate" will never allow him to lose. So the way he DOES defy his fate would be to lose in the tournament.

Oh cool it's Soundwave, I think I'll save this picture as a POV reference for reminding myself how my human characters who are Very Short usually actually see--

--Wait a minute

*Squints* --WAITAMINUTE--

HE GOT A BUTTON ON HIS CROTCH

and also it sometimes lights up red but I have found Only One Happening of this and I do not know why it was red

(when he was drilling for a relic, right before his fight with Wheeljack)

PROPOSE YOUR HEADCANONS

So... "Node", "I", "Eye" or "Ai", right? What if this entity's body doesn't actually belong to it?

This is just my little brainstorm that i did because i needed to base my design off something, so i chose the "Gaster route", if you will.

Node and the body we associate with Node are originally two separate entities. Node itself is a being without a body. Internet at large, if you will, its "antivirus".

And the original owner of the body is a regular stickfigure. I imagine the og owner to be some type of researcher/scientist, who may or may not have had some type of a relationship with the Conductor and who's research was mainly focused on the laws of internet and its rules, which is also how he came to meet the Conductor.

But at some point some form of an "incident" happened. Was it an honest mistake? An accident? A murder? Maybe a coincidence? Who knows! The only fact here is that as a result of this incident the stick died and his code was torn across space, going dormant.

That is until the inciting incident of Animation Versus' story mode, where for one reason or another there was a disturbance in the internet, causing the entity known by many names to awaken. But for that it would also need a body. So it collected and reconnected the pieces of code that were scattered, recreating the original stick's body and taking it for itself.

Of course, some pieces were lost in the cracks, causing the face to be lost entirely, the whole body being discoloured and translucent, and the clothes to be warped, as some pieces of other broken codes were used to fill in the blanks.

I need a reminder of home.

it's been a busy week! Applied for a second job, got two Etsy peter orders made and mailed, finished a sculpture/casting commission, made progress on several projects, and got a shitton of pewter cast and polished with my mom.

We got a few pewter orders in which has been such a relief, and also kept us busy.

KITTEN UPDOOT~!

Gomez (white paws) and Fester, now since fully vaccinated, have been introduced to the Big Kitties, Gizmo, Tia, and Jasmine! Introductions have been going well. Gomez is still pretty nervous around them; Fester now after weeks of meet ups will curl up with both my boys in a cuddle pile and they'll from each other.

They're almost full grown, we think. Fester just hit another growth spurt, biiig paws!

lynx skull in progress; added more pink. I've been very drawn to purples and pinks lately... Believe it or not, Soundwave came as part of that *after* and he's only made it worse 😆 or better? 🤔 In any case... I've embraced it.

Rock from my late Aunt's (my awesome artsy Aunt, not my scary landlord Aunt) house... I've been a weepy teary mess this month, honestly. We went and visited my uncle and i can't even begin to express how much it means to me that he's letting me have more or less first pick of all her art belongings; she was an art teacher, and going through her old sketchbooks and hand finished projects, i just...

I miss her. I wish, as i always do when a friend passes, that we'd doesn't more time together just talking. I had no idea how many similar things she and i did in parallel to each other in our art, in our own ways. So many tools she had are things i was trained how to use in my art school experiences, but lost access to when i left those facilities either via graduating or leaving.

I'm stunned stupid because i truly think one of the most valuable gifts someone can ever give is that of knowledge and experiences, and my uncle offered me to pick books I'd read and study from, from her old library collection. And it's not all subjects on art; i already took home some textbooks on molecular sciences and physics and astrology, things that aside from fueling my crazy enjoyment of learning about the world, also directly help me in writing my books... I have been struggling with Shockwave and his high level of science know how yet wanting to represent that, so this is just one of many art projects that alikes to.

[work in progress, very very early stage. It's been... Years, YEARS since i let myself Just Have Fun painting something big like this without any rules. I just wanted to see what can't out into the canvas and roll with it. Thank you, Aunt of Art. You inspire me still.]

Just. Yeah. It has honestly been an amazing kick in the butt for me to remind myself what the fuck am i doing thinking I'm not hot stuff who knows her shit, because holy fuck, i actually do have with and i know how to do a lot of shit it's actually kinda crazy and dammit I'm gonna make a living as an artist because i gotta and i can. I live and breathe art anyways i might as well embrace it. Even the pewter business is art for me, even though most the actual work i do is database stuff and paperwork and managerial things, still, those are just the less artsy dudes of the entire project of making

Coyote skull that's been in progress later after later for... A long ass time. I've gotten a few new colors on it this week.

...lots of pink 😆 and purple! Also silver. Mmm. I've always loved the metallics.

Anyhow.... I wanted to show some of what I've been up to this week. I'm a lot slower at writing right now but I'm also still working on the next chapters~

Thank you so, so much, to everyone who's helped me not only in my financial and stress crazy crisis but just. In reminding me that i have value, and i shouldn't listen to a few loud voices just because they're loud and dramatic. It's a lot easier to say good things to someone else than it is to my own reflection, and y'all are helping me remember i need to live myself, too.

Bonus mom pic

My birds eat healthier than i do (I'm working on changing that but their diets are much easier and affordable to fix than mine xP) lmfao. If took me over TWO YEARS to get Bongo to even try eating veggies. She really didn't start eating her veggie chop until I adopted Echo, who absolutely ducking loves healthy food my gods I'm so happy and fortunate for that.