#dark robby

But somewhere along the way, it became darker, twisted. It went from wanting to uphold Adamson's ideas to wanting Frank, only Frank. Frank, who was sweet and awkward and good, in his marriage to Abby, and in the love for his kids, despite being a crappy husband and a mostly absent dad, thanks to his residency. Robby knew Frank loved his kids and would show up for them as much as he was allowed with his job.

Robby never begrudged Frank being a father; in fact, that was part of who Frank was and the softness made Robby melt. Tanner and Penny were just like Frank, tiny little perfect Franks, but Robby would love them even if they were little Abby's because Frank loved them.

But they weren't.

PittFest happens, and Robby is broken and furious, and quickly replaces Frank with Dennis. Sweet Dennis. Who would never be what Frank was, could never feel that space. Dennis was going to be who Frank was supposed to be. His mentee, his heir, his golden child, the future of the Pitt.

Robby cuts Frank off for ten months, but checks in on Abby, Abby, who is struggling with the divorce and two tiny children who are too much like Frank all of a sudden, and stressed and overworked. Robby's not doing it to help Abby, he's doing it for Tanner and Penny. To keep an eye on them, to keep them safe.

They are a part of Frank. A man, no matter how much Robby pushes away, will die unable to let his boy go.

There is too much going on in Robby's head, too much anger, love, need, want, guilt, when he finally sees Frank again. He pushes, unable to handle it all, and he pushes Frank to the edge and off. He knows this when Frank tries to leave without talking to him. Frank was never that cold with Robby, could never be that cold.

"You need help. Robby. You need help."

And something blooms in Robby, something dangerously close to hope because all Frank saw was him. Because Frank and Robby were the same, something Robby knew in his bones. Frank would never be able to truly let Robby go.

Robby leaves for sabbatical, but he doesn't go on his trip. He spends three months preparing. Moving and shifting things, painting walls and buying beds and kids' toys. He stocks up on kids' books and moves things around to make room for Frank's clothes in his closet. He looks up new preschools and kindergartens, and spends three months getting everything perfect.

Toxic Robby who was so careful until Frank’s fall from grace, since Robby found out about the drugs and the stealing. Robby who has spent ten months being furious with Frank, yes because the drugs and the stealing but also because Robby had been so careful not to ruin Frank, and Frank still ended up ruined, by his own hand, not Robby’s.

Toxic Robby who was brutal Frank’s first day back and Robby’s last day before going on sabbatical, tearing Frank down and offering little praises. Who then spends three months known Frank is right, but also reconciling with dark part of himself that knows he needs Frank more.

That he’s not complete without Frank.

Toxic Robby who know longer cars about ruining Frank, of destroying his future because Frank’s future is with Robby. Will always be with Robby. They’re soul mates, tied and strangled together by the same bloody red string of fate.

Robby who takes too long to realise the sick and twisted thing inside of him is actually love. Love he didn’t know he could have, could give. He wants everything Frank will give him, his smiles, his laughs. He wants the arguments and the make ups, lazy mornings and dull domesticity. He wants Frank, wants Tanner, and Penny, and the next baby Doe that needs a family, that needs love.

THE QUALITY IS SHIT.

But I have FOUND THE WHOLE DINER SCENE.

DARK NOAAHHH

WE LOVE DARK NOOAAHHHHHHH

THIS IS ONLY PART OF IT.

DARK. ROBBY. DARK. NOAH.