Hey coon, Iām trying to write an original book and for some reason Iāve gotten bad writers block and everything I write I feel isnāt good enough and itās putting me in a bad head space and really depressing me. Is there anything you do if/when you have writer block that you find helps you or maybe just give some words of encouragement? Sorry for the more sad ask Itās just been bringing me down. Hope youāre having a beautiful day. <3 Jaz
Hello, buddy!!!
First of all, donāt you ever, EVER again say sorry for aĀ āmore sadā ask. If you ever apologize again for something like that IMMA BITE YOU >:( U NO SAY SORRY FOR BEING SAD! U NO SORRY FOR TALKING ABOUT IT WITH A FREN! U HAPPY AMIDST THE SADNESS BECAUSE U HAVE A FRIEND U CAN TELL UR PROBLEMS TO!!!!!!
Really, itās more than just okay. I donāt know if youāve seen it before, but Iāve said a couple times when someone asks or brings the subject up, this isnāt a happy and safe place because every ask is happy. Even the sad asks make of this a happy and safe place, because even when the ask is sad, you know what that implies? That the person behind the screen got a chance to vent their thoughts. Hence, thereās a little weight off their chest. Getting to talk about whatās bothering you is always the first big step for recovery. It may seem small, and it is, but it takes courage to take that step. And from that point on, itās snowball effect; it was a tiny movement, yes, but if it wasnāt for that little first movement, we wouldnāt have the big ball of progress that happens later on.Ā
And besides that, it implies some trust. Youāre giving some trust on me, and isnāt that beautiful? And besides that, I sometimes can come up with some advice, or with at least sincere comfort. And isnāt that beautiful too??? So donāt say sorry. Iām here not just for the happy asks. Iām here for both the happy and the sad asks, because, I said it myself, didnāt I? Happy and safe place. And that includes safety to your feelings and thoughts. So donāt hesitate about it, donāt think that I donātĀ ālikeā sad asks, or that Iāll be upset about it. And donāt you ever, ever apologize again. Aye?
Ahahaā¦I didnāt mean to rant about that!! I just wanted to keep that clear. Canāt let a buddy think they did wrong when itās fine!!
Aye, I see the problem.Ā
How to get over writer block, huhā¦
Well, okay, let me add a keep reading here! If anyone else is reading this and wants to see, go ahead. The only inconvenience is that I talk too much, so this isnāt a quick guide, itās just personal rant trying to help a buddy, but if youāre curious, you click that link c:
OKAY SO FIRST OF ALL
Congratulations on starting an original book!!! WOW, BUDDY, THATāS PHENOMENAL! THATāS FANTASTIC!!! Holy moogles above, Iām SO excited and so happy for you!!!! :D
It takes something to start a project like that. Mostly because I know you care about what youāre doing, youāre not just one of those random people that write mere trash not knowing what theyāre talking about. I think Iāve never read anything from you, but I donāt need that. From our interactions and the way you write even if itās just in a conversation, I can tell for sure that you care and youāre GREAT at it. Besides, you wouldnāt be stressing this much if you wouldnāt care a bout it, right?Ā
Thatās your first big hint that should help you calm down and be happier about it; the fact that youāre putting a lot of you into it. All this stress and the way the block is depressing you, all these feelings and all these sensations, you wouldnāt be feeling them if you didnāt care. If it wasnāt something special for you. If you didnāt want it to turn out fantastically.
I donāt mean to say that you need to be stressed and depressed every minute as you work on this, no. Itās okay once, twice, every here and there, but every time that it happens, you take that negativity and you see it from the other side. Because, in the end, the fact that you feel all that is because you care, and if you care, donāt you think that that means that youāll give the best of yourself?? And that because of that, the results will be AMAAAAAAAAAAAAAZING!?!??!
I trust in that!!! Sometimes, the more excited you are and the more you care about a project talks about how much effort youāre willing to put into it. I know itās just a fic, but look at Iggy and the Beast, for example. How I can so easily get nervous and anxious about it, and yet, how nice it is, how much effort and love I?m putting into it. Itās the same. You worry because you care, and if you care, it means youāre working and will work on it with every fiber of your body. And that, my friend, hard work given with all your mightā¦that is half the way to your goal. :)
Now, as for advice as itself on what I do when I have a writer block, thatās pretty tough to askā¦
Sometimes, itās the things every internet page recommends you. Listen to music that fits the mood or scene youāre writing. Take a breath. Brainstorming (i was about to sayĀ āshower of brainsā ahahahhaha). And they work, they do sometimes.
But you know what I feel you need? The way you describe your block and how it makes you feel, theā¦essence or vibe or color that your ask as itself radiates. It sort of tells me of the one thing that took me so long to understand.
To get rid of your block, stop writing.
Sounds weird, doesnāt it? Like, you feel youāre too slow at running no matter how hard you practice, and the trainer tells you the best thing you can do is sit down and do nothing. Or you feel like youāre not doing progress with your new jutsu and Kakashi tells you the best you can do is go rest (AHA! Saw your comment on my Naruto post recently! <3). But wasnāt Kakashi right every time? I mean, I canāt in a mILLION LIVES, COMPARE MYSELF TO ALMIGHTLY LORD AND GOD KAKASHI BUT LIKE. IT WAS A WAY OF SAYING IT.
You know, Jazā¦sometimes what we need to progress at what weāre doing is stop what weāre doing for one second. I donāt mean forever. I mean for one second, and by one second I donāt mean that advice ofĀ āgo take a walk and take a fresh breath and then try againā, nope. I mean, three days, two weeks, one month. Not just a minute or an hour.Ā
Creating isnāt meant to give you a hard time, and it definitely isnāt meant to depress you. Art is meant to be a way to express our feelings, not to worsen them. Art, indeed, has never meant to be a way to heal; what heals us is to vent out our feelings,w hich we do through art, but art as itself isnāt mean for the task. Same for the other way around, it can transmit great negativity, but itās never meant to build it. And if youāre getting some out of it, then you need to stop.
We have limits. Physical, emotional, in every way we have limits. That includes the limits of our creative process. As much as we love creating, weāre not meant to do it 24/7. Nobody is meant to do anything 24/7 other than blinking and breathing and existing, but no activity is meant for such amounts of time. You tire yourself. And what do you expect to happen when you exhaust yourself but destruction?
Think of it like a physical challenge. Imagine writing is running, and youāre training to jump into the junior leagues or whatever the first professional round is called. So you, OBVIOUSLY, go to train, right? And what do you do to get better and faster at running? Well, you practice. You run. So you run and you run and you run. And then you hit your limits, that point where the muscles are at one movement of breaking and your lungs are all stressed and you as a whole are feeling terrible.
BUT RUNNING IS YOUR PASSION,R IGHT??? AND IF ITāS YOUR PASSION AND YOU WANT TO GET REALLY GOOD AT IT, YOU HAVE TO PRACTICE EVERY DAY ALL DAY, RIGHT?
So you keep going and going.
And I assume you know the whole mess that happens then,r ight?
This whole thing about howā¦when you keep going after you hit your limits, you start having a backwards effect. Instead of getting faster, youāre getting slower. Instead of running better, youāre starting to stumble. Instead of getting healthier, youāre damaging your lungs, heart, other organs, and your muscles. And when the time to race comes, youāre so worn out, that you donāt make it 5 meters past the starting line before youāre already wasted.
ā¦same for writing and any other creative process, Jaz, my dear.
You canāt push yourself too hard for too long. Thereās limits. Writing every day is super healthy, but not for too long that it starts stressing you and depressing you. Sometimes, writer blocks hit randomly or for this or that. But you know what I think is happening to you, specifically? That youāre over-worrying about the book, and youāre so nervous, and youāre working too hard in it, that your brain wentĀ āThatās it, I canāt take more. I need a break from this specific thingā, and of course, naturally, it shut your writing spirits down.
And if you keep insisting on breaking it yourself, youāll only worsen it, because we CANāT fight against the brainās orders! Brain wouldnāt block something if it wasnāt for OUR health. And if you insist on trying to write and write and write and write, youāll be hitting that metal wall your brain set, and when it weakens, brain will put a SECOND, thicker, stronger barrier, and a third and a fourth AND HOW DO YOU PLAN ON BREAKING DOWN FOUR UNBREAKABLE BARRIERS, HM?
Your brain knows youāre tired. It knows this is poisoning youā¦your brain is only trying to block what itās started to identify as an enemy. Donāt insist on making it worse. And donāt make of writing your enemy. Writing is an ally, a friend, a sister, a mother, a deity of its own, and it needs respect and love. Not your brainās hatred.
And I tell you all this from experience. Why do you think the Beauty and the Beast updates take so long in between? Iām rather fast at writing (my long asks show it), so 15k is a thing of 2 or 3 days for me. So why arenāt updates weekly?Ā
Because I learned all this the bad way. Because I was starting to let writing, my dearest beloved art, transform into a poisoning monster that ate me. I wasted and exhausted myself worrying too much, writing too much, and giving too much, until I started doing it by force, like something that I feared but still had to do, until writing was not my friend but my owner. And no one owns no one here. You and your writing are friends. Should be friends.
Maybe you didnāt notice, because I didnāt say it explicitly, but the ficās updates were relatively fast, and the one day I started playing Comrades and everything I talked about was Comrades, and then Dragon Age, and the updates were slower. It was because I learned that only when I stop can I continue, as ironic as it sounds.Ā
And sometimes it happens to specific things. Right now Iām VERY motivated for the Corqi fic, but when itās about my ask requests or Iggy and the Beast, Iāve got to take these breaks in between. Because my asks had that effect on me too. I would answer 12k to each, sometimes 2 a day, every dayā¦of course I exhausted myself beyond the limits.
So thatās my current advice to you, because it feels like youāre on this one specific problem, Jaz.
I wouldnāt know when itās theĀ ārightā time to come back. I donāt think thereās one specificĀ āright timeā. So long you let yourself rest as much as you need, then you can go try take the computer and open the document again. If, even before you write one word, it weighs in your mood, youāre not ready yet. So go back to take a break from this project, then come back some other day and try again.Ā
And I forgot to say, remember creators are always their greatest and toughest judge...and know that you canāt see your work as everybody else does, because you saw it grow. You remember its ugly stages. You canāt see the real beauty of it. Itās okay to correct as many things as you need to feel comfortable, but know that thereās not a thing likeĀ āperfectā. Not one thing is except math. But when it comes to art? Not a thing is perfect. Especially not to the artist/creator.
Remember, and I tell you this because many art and music and theatre and literature teachers told me in my high school, your art is always a thousand times more beautiful than you can see. Itās not advice or encouragement. Itās a fact.
And those are my advices to you, dear Jaz. Iām really excited and proud knowing youāve taken up on such a journey, but I worry you may turn it into poison. Do not. Long journeys need good rests, or youāll stay stuck in the middle and wonāt reach the goal, right? So you take it easy. Thereās no deadlines. Thereās no pressure other than your own. Take it easy; create for the outside, donāt destroy on the inside.
Dear Jaz, I hope to hear from you again regarding this. And if this doesnāt work, you tell me and I try to figure something else out, because, as a reminder, Iām no expert and can only talk from experience!! But itās okay. If the solution that works for me doesnāt work for you, it doesnāt mean youāre broken. We just operate differently and you need another sort of medicine, and weāll look for it together if needed, okay? <3
Thank you for the good wishes and the trust, dear Jaz. And thanks for giving me a chance to put my thoughts in order (I just wroteĀ āmy orders into thoughtā lmao) and to let me reflex!!
I wish the best for you and that original book. I bet itās going to be phenomenal. :)
Greatest of success, dear Jaz! I hope youāre having a most beautiful night! Lots of raccoon hugs to you, my dear friend. <3
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About DA:I, you know that I love Cullen, I really do.
The only flaw he has is that he wants to fix everything that doesnāt involve his personal life by SMASHING THINGS.
Seriously, sometimes I donāt pick him as leader of the missions of the war table because heās so savage omg
Mission is likeĀ āThere are some beasts attacking our soldiers because weāre in their habitatā.
Leliana is likeĀ āItās partly our fault. Weāre in their home eating their food. Maybe we can try to relocate the beasts somewhere they can thrive and live normally.ā
Cullen is likeĀ āHoly gods of the heavens, that is TERRIBLE, let me send a group to slay those beasts.ā
Omg Cullen, what did they ever do to you, hahaha
Mission is likeĀ āThis kingās adviser is an evil wizard.ā
Josephine is likeĀ āWe have to make the king see the truth. Letās talk with him.ā
Cullen is likeĀ āOh my god no, thatās TERRIBLE, letās go ambush the adviser and then we kill him.ā
Mission is likeĀ āMinor problemā, Josephine isĀ āLetās be kindā, Leliana isĀ āLetās be subtleā, and Cullen isĀ āLetās KILL ITā.
Every time I read his suggestions I want to grab him by that squishable face and tell him
Cullen, my dear. My ray of light. Feather of an angel, cutie pie, guest of my heart. You shy cute creature, wonderful human being, my darling and sweetheart. Adorable little stuttering potato.Ā Chill.
Tumblr sucks and are my ask so! Did you know that after Ignis goes blind, if you press attack near him, he stumbles and then Prompto and Gladio yell at Noct? It makes me feel guilty whenever it happens but then Noct goes on to try and say it was an accident and? How do you accidentally swing a sword and hit a blind person? Poor Ignis has nothing to say in his own defense though :(
BAD, BAD Tumblr that eats asks! >:( Thanks for sending it in again!!
Ah, my. Yes, I had noticed, but even despite that, reading it is like a reminder and itās like adding salt to the wound that I forgot I had, hahahah :āD IT BURNS.
I declare myself guilty for trying to swing a sword nearby blind Ignis in Cartanica on purpose, just to see what happened or if Gladio got mad. I wasnāt expecting him to really get mad, though. :ā(
Also Prompto! It surprised me from him, to be honest. I knew Gladio was angry and so while I wasnāt expecting him to really get angry, it was not a surprise as it is. But when Prompto joined him and started complaining and nagging him, that really took me off-guard, and it sort of made me feel incredibly guilty.
Maybe itās because Prompto had always been the sunshine boy all across the journey and never got in troubles with anyone; Prompto, the smiling boy, the weakest of the group so far, the happy-go-lucky cheerful sweetheart, nagging you. Getting upset at you. Angrily asking āwhat has Ignis ever done to you?ā It was Prompto and his nagging what really got to me. I didnāt feel sad, but it made me feel very, very, very guiltyā¦ I felt suddenly so little in comparison and like I had done the worst thing ever, and that I would never be able to get out of their memories the once that I swung my sword at a blind Ignis and that they would forever remember about it, and even if they forgave me, just the fact that they would remember was enough to make me feel microscopic and like guilt ate me from the inside aklsjdflksgdjlskdjf
You know what the worst part is? Well, now that Iām writing it, thing is, I play with JPN audio, so I donāt know if it fits too. But the way I play, Prompto doesnāt soundā¦necessarily angry. He just sounds upset and like Noctis is behaving like a child. More than angry, Prompto sounds very mature. Which honestly just makes it worse; was it anger, youād think heāll cool down at some point, or that he just wants an excuse to yell at you. But no; Prompto has he head and mind cool, heās not nagging you because heās angry, heās nagging you because youāre an immature and uncaring selfish little shit that doesnāt look twice. Hngnhā¦ see, thatās why it got to make me feel so guilty. Because suddenly the guy that I saw as the puppy and the kid of the group suddenly sounds so mature, and that the child-like one of the group makes YOU feel like a child, that really weighs, ahahaha, ahā¦
I think the dialogues are really meant for when it happens on accident; when you switch weapons and Iggy happened to be walking right behind you, or when youāre finishing battle and you miss hitting attack after itās over, and Iggy happened to be nearby, etc. I guess it COULD be an accident, mostly if Ignis is behind and nearby; Noct could swing a sword and not notice him there, or in battle, when itās all frantic and thereās like, almost no time to be like āOh, yes, excuse me, I need to stand here so if you could move two steps to the left, that would be fantasticā. So I guess it can really be an accident,ā¦which really just makes it even WORSE ahahaha :āD
Because Noct really didnāt mean itā¦but the bros are making it feel like he could have avoided it and didnāt. Hnghng, Prompto and Gladio really make a good team when it comes to make me/Noct feel guilty to the point of wanting to run away and do it all on my own while they wait sat there, but they also get angry if I get too far from them ahahah :āD
WHY ARE YOU MAKING THINGS SO COMPLICATED, CHOCOBROS, IāM JUST TRYING TO ACCEPT MY DESTINY AS A KING THAT HAS TO DIE AS SOON AS HE TOUCHES THE THRONE CAN YOU PLEASE BE A LITTLE MORE PATIENT THANK YOU.
I mean, Noct still doesnāt know about that sacrifice he has to make, but he didnāt need that; by that point Iām amazed none of the guys, mostly Gladdy, Ignis, or Noct, had a nerve and emotional breakdown and stopped functioning. It was too much stress! :ā(
You know what I hadnāt noticed until I read your ask, though?
That Ignis says nothingā¦
I hadnāt noticed that. You know why I think itās the saddest thing?
Because Ignis is conscious enough that those comments will make Noctis feel guilty, and he doesnāt want to add to that.
And even more. Ignis is probably too hurt by this sensation of being a burden to ask Noctis to be careful; saying that is admitting that Noct did hit him or was about to, and admitting that is admitting Ignis didnāt see it. Admitting that, then, would be admitting that heās but an obstacle now, useless, that he canāt even avoid or stop friendly fire/accidental hits.
But knowing Ignis, itās probably a more selfless thing, and I think itās because he doesnāt want Noctis to feel guilty.
By this point, Ignis does know what Noctisā fate is. Ignis has never tried to make Noctis stress out, but Ignis is often trying for Noct to not be lazy. Ignis pressures him not into stress, he just pushes him enough to motivate him to work harder. And yes, Noct can be annoyed and even angry at Ignisā constant ādo thisā, ādonāt do thatā, ātry doing thisā, āremember toā, ādid you alreadyā, āhave you yetā, āNoct, I must remind youā, etc. Ignis does it just because he wants Noct to become better, but he understands that it can annoy Noctis.
So now that Ignis knows what awaits for him, and after all Noctis has already been throughā¦ Ignis doesnāt have the heart to continue pressing him.
This is the point where Ignis stops telling him what and how to do it, and itās honestly heartbreaking. In the past, Ignis did it so that Noctis would become better and do a good job as the Chosen. But now that Ignis understand what being the Chosen meansā¦ part of him doesnāt have the heart to put more pressure on Noctisā¦and, maybe, part of him doesnāt want to press him into being better, because maybe if heās not better tomorrow, he wonāt die the day after it.
:(
Gods, maybe Iām looking too much into it, but the idea is heart-wrenching. Iām mostly rolling, though, with the idea that Ignis just doesnāt want Noctis to have even more on his shoulders; Noctis has more, way beyond more than enough just with Lunafreyaās death and seeing Ignis in that state. Prompto and Gladio nagging him really just pushes him past the limits that are beyond the limits, that are beyond the first limits, of stress and guilt. Noctis must be to the very top of his head, his glass must be so full, at half-half a drop of spillingā¦the very last that Noctis needs is for Ignis to add anything.
So he doesnāt; Ignis stays quiet. Noct may have hit him on accident, or almost, and he does need to be more careful, he does need to look behind and around him before doing his moves, he does need to remember Ignis is not in conditions, Noctis does need to this or that.. But Ignis keeps quiet. He knows Noctis is feeling guilty to the point he canāt even look at the ring without having a breakdown. Ignis doesnāt have the heart to press him more, not even a tiny bit. Noct is suffering, and as much as Ignis may have something to say, he doesnāt. He canāt. Itās too much for him, Noctisā own sufferingā¦
In some way, Ignis is not complaining about being hit by accident, because he would very much rather be hit with a sword, than put Noctis into more stress and pain.
Oh, Ignis, that selfless creatureā¦ :(
So yeah. I hadnāt noticed that Ignis stays quiet. I mean, itās one of those things you notice but you only really notice for real, as in the weight of it, until someone else words it. And itās amazingly heart-breaking.
Whether itās for fearing to admit to himself that he couldnāt see the hit coming, for not having the heart to nag Noctis because he knows Noct is already stressed and guilty past his limits, or because Ignis canāt dare push Noct to become better because Ignis now knows heās really just pushing him to his graveā¦
That last bit, though. The possibility that Ignis knows what Noct has to face in his future, and Ignis doesnāt have the heart to advise him as he used to do in the past because now he knows where all of Noctisā hard work is leading himā¦
Thatās maybe the most heartbreaking of possibilities, because Ignis isnāt even thinking about the fact that HEās getting hit, heās just- thinking about Noctis. As always. But in the worst of ways this time; knowing heās to die sometime soonā¦ :ā(
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WHAT HAVE YOU DONE TO ME, DEAR ANON, WHY WOULD YOU POINT OUT SOMETHING SO HEARTBREAKING AND HORRIBLE I LOVE IT.
Aahkjsadksajfdkfjslkgsā¦ seriously, this is so sad ;A;
I hadnāt noticed it this way, aah :ā(
But anyway, yes!! Those are my thoughts. C:
Thanks a lot for dropping this ask in. It really put me to think and it made my perception of the Cartanica dungeon even wider and more vast, and makes it even sadder. Ignis and Noctis truly are very tragic characters and they touch very fragile heartstrings within me.. :ā(
Thanks as well for checking the Did Coon Get My Ask list! And thank you even more for sending your ask back in. I want everyone to know itās fine to send it again if itās missing, and it really is a huge relief to me that you do send it again. Iām not ignoring anyone. :)
Thank you LOTS for this amazing ask that will definitely make my next gameplay, whenever it may be, absolutely better and sadder (in a good way of experiencing it) because now I have a wider way to look at it.
Thanks a LOT for choosing this raccoonie to share your thoughts with, too! Itās an honor and a pleasure to me. ( Ėź³āĖ )
Thank you, dear anon!!
I hope youāre having a MOST FANTASTIC day or night!! Ā (ļ¾Ā“ć®`)ļ¾
The other day I learned that one of Shivaās form (as in the Indian God, not the Final Fantasy Shiva) has three roles; he who destroys, he who creates, and he who preservates.
And to represent that, heās usually found holding a trident.
So it made me wonder if Luna, always in company of Gentiana, having the trident was mere coincidence and looked good, or if they thought this through.
Nice cultural symbolism easter eggs in there, Square Enix.
Omg half a page later I find that another form of Shiva is usually accompanied by a dog.
Final Fantasy, I know youāve always done good references but what are you doing omg I love you
So you know how the things you obtain along the story all stay in your inventory in Lucis of the past?
Imagine the chocobros knowing that the things that appears randomly in their stuff come from their future actions, like, they know Future Them got them and thatās why they, in the past, have access to them even tho theyāre not supposed to.
ā- Yo, look. A cactuar statue sold in Accordo. Nice, letās give it to Talcott :)ā
ā- What is this card? Looks like belonging to some Niflheim base. Eh. Weāll see.ā
ā- Leviathan appeared! Means weāll have success with her at Altissia, no troubles! :)ā
ā- Isnāt this Lunafreyaās trident? Noct, weāll get to meet her! And she gifts it to you <3Ā ā
ā- Lunaās and Iās notebook! What a pretty drawing there is on the last page :3Ā ā
ā- Oh, look. My dadās ring. Seems like weāre recovering it no troubles :)ā
ā- Hey, Kingsglaive uniforms! Noooct, weāre getting to be your Kingsglaives! How cool is that!?Ā
- And my King attire. Cape and all. Iāll look so damn handsome sat on the throne after all this mess is done, eh?ā
ā- Wtf, look, itās a cane. What do you think weāll need it for? So when we become old we can walk?
- I donāt think so. It seems more of a blind-helping cane rather than fitting for the necessities of an old person.
- Betcha itās for you, Iggy. Youāre the only one that canāt see without glasses.
- Iāve told you my vision is passable without lenses. I donāt see any reason Iāll personally require of this. Perhaps itās a symbolic gift?
- I guess. Who cares.Ā ā
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From the way they describe him everywhere, and the way his official description is written, it makes me kind of feel like his parents had him only for the sake of serving the royal family rather than wanting to form a family.
Kind of likeĀ āYo, the king and queen are planning to have a child soon. We wonāt last forever: the future heir needs a new generation of servants and companions. We need to have a kid that serves for that purposeā.
Like they had him because they had to, not cause they wanted.Ā
And it honestly makes me kinda sad?? Have a child and have all of his life Ā traced and planned before heās even born? Like, never teach him he can actually have his own dreams and goals because itās more/only important to fulfill those of the prince.
And he actually doesnāt mind because he doesnāt notice his lifeās whole about Noctis and not his own?
I just realized; maybe thatās why he behaves like some sort of mom to the three guys; cause thatās how heād have liked to be treated?
Heās my absolute fave, so Iāve been thinking about this and it kind of makes me sad about him, thinking on what kind of childhood he had and if his parents ever treated him like a son rather than justĀ āthe princeās future adviserā.
how do you have so much positive energy asking for a friend š¤
I havenāt slept in two years!!!Ā (ć*Ā°ā½Ā°*)
Hahahahaha, kidding. But Iām going to answer you honestly in a lecture that you probably didnāt want, but I feel like sharing c:
I donāt, indeed, have much energy. I have 5 artworks gifted to or dedicated to me that I havenāt answered to, 13 personal messages, and 44 asks yet to answer (yours is 45th), 5 messages in AO3, two large fanfics, and homework from my real life activities. If I had more energy, I would have half the things yet to complete, but here I am, having this kaload of things I havenāt answered to, and without the energy.
It may seem like I have a lot of positive energy because I reply to a lot of things in my happy way, but for each I answer, thereās 10 waiting. And after 4 I reply to, Iām drained. Exhausted. Mentally dead. I donāt, as it seems, have a lot of positive energy. It just looks like that because I never complain.
But you know? I never complain because I donāt think itās annoying or a bother.
I donāt have as much positive energy as it may seem, but I do have a lot of it. And even when Iām drained, Iām still positive. You know how I do that? Hereās the magical moon raccoon secret to how to be mentally healthy and positive: I donāt think of my responsibilities or activities as a burden. :)
I always try to look at things in their good side, even the bad things. Because itās not about not thinking negatively, itās about realizing that even negative is good.
A kaload of homework? I acknowledge Iām stressed, but hey, homework leads to good notes, which leads to my progress as a student, which will let me approve the exam to university! The lots of tag comments I add to my reblogs? They drain me like FUCK and I stress over it, yes, but I also make the artists and other people happy! The 44 asks? How could I ever consider a burden that people like me and take the time to write to me? Thatās phenomenal! A bad thing happened? I have rights to be upset and cry, yet I mustnāt forget Iāve learned, and I will recover and when I do Iāll be wiser! Iām sad? Iām sad, and it means I have empathy, and feelings, and I care, and thatās beautiful!Ā <3
And so on and on. Itās about not ignoring the bad sides of things, but seeing through them until finding something that makes them good. That way, Iām not ignoring the bad things, which is unhealthy (pretend that nothing bad ever happens), but Iām not letting them bringing me down either, and if they do, I remember itās not forever.
Some major events have given me a very open and positive view of life. And I mean major events as in, the high rate of kidnap and murder in my country and yet how Iāve always come back home every day, an earthquake that killed thousands and literally destroyed many buildings, and yet how I lived, and being told that I was going into surgery and only during it while I slept would doctors know if I had a terminal disease or not, and yet, I didnāt.
You know, after some stuff like this, you learn to love life and be positive. Because Iāve realized that things like homework, many conversations yet to answer, troubles with a crush, theyāre all on a second plane of life, you know? And that with those aside, I have a roof above my head, food in the fridge, my four limbs, my 5 senses, my family is healthy, and I live. With all that, I have a million times more than others do.
So thatās probably my main source of all this positive energy Iām always radiating; from my love to life. Because even when bad things happen, Iāve learned to see the good sides in it, and Iāve learned that Iām blessed and covered in gifts not everybody has.Ā
So the least I can do is try to spread and share it, you know? Many of you people out there struggle with things like a harder life, or depression, or anxiety, so that I give you more of that. Life has blessed me with this appreciation of life itself, then I should share it and not just keep it, because not everyone goes through an earthquake or an almost-terminal-disease announcement, so not everyone is shaken like I was, so not everyone has yet learned to love life like this, so to save them stuff like that, I can try to share by word and example, see if they can grab some of it.
I think Iāve ranted a lot by now, but you put me to think,Ā because I donāt consider I have a lot of this positive energy. I have it, I just donāt think of it asĀ āa lotā. Just asā¦āvery sincereā. Quality over quantity :)
But yeah. What I mean to say, I think, is that I donāt have a lot of positive energy, and Iām not always a happy bouncy little ball of fluff, I too have my sad and angry and upset moments. But lifeās bad sides have ironically taught me the good, and that I could die any day, so why let my last days be sad or empty if I can spend them being happy and making others happy?
And I mean, itās not just the philosophy, I also try to sleep good, have water, and remember to not overdo things. Sometimes I may have the time to answer to 2 or 3 more asks, but I decide instead to go grab my PS and play for the rest of the evening if possible. Good sleep, take breaks in between, and remember that the world, or my life at least, wonāt end because of 1 or 2 trivial things, so I can take a moment to breathe and rest from my activities. Will they pile up? Probably. But Iād rather work on stuff one by one and make them happily, than make all of them at once but zombified and out of energy.
Quality over quantity! Itās not how much energy you have, but how you use the one you do have! :DĀ
Besides, thereās already a lot of negativity going through the world, and I donāt blame people! But why add to that negativity if itās in your power to add a bit to the positivity? Itās as I once said in a fanfic: it doesnāt matter if your light is small, it will always win and outstand in the dark, as thick and as vast as the darkness may be.Ā
So burn. You donāt need to be a galaxy, a sun, not even a torch. Just a little flame, even if itās like a matchstick, that will still outstand among the darkness this world has drowned itself into.
Itās not on you (or the friend youāre asking for <3) to have a lot of good nergy. Itās about taking the one you already have, be it as scarce or as vast as it may be, and make it happy, let it rest when itās drained, and remember youāre alive and you donāt want to die upset. Cheers, and hakuna matata! ā¤
((adding a little gratitude note under the keep reading))
Thank you for this lovely, wonderful ask, buddy. That you think I have a lot of positive energy to give, thatās so sweet of you!!Ā ( Ā“ ā½ ` )
Iām happy that you view me in such a way. I hope that some of the positivity sticks to you and has made you smile even if only once. :D
I hope youāre having a MOST BEAUTIFUL day or night!!Ā (ļ¾Ā“ć®`)ļ¾
