#consciousopenrelating

🧜🏽‍♀️🧜🏽‍♀️🧜🏽‍♀️ • • was it mary oliver?....leave room in your life for impossibilities...⚡⚡⚡ • • depth, love as a truth in connection, love as transformational alchemy that just 'is'...♾️💗♾️ • • it's funny being in your 40s + waking up to the criatura within. 🐍 my lessons in life have served me well. if you cannot love my full expressions of feminity, allowing space for my freedom + feralness, there would be no reason to believe you truly feel passion for me...i have no desire to be conquered by a masculine ego. • • i only want to be conquered by love. a full expression of your divinity. oneness + unity as the experience of our truths. our wild nature divinely mirroring each other...🐺💞👁️ • • i'm leaving room in this life for the unreasonable + the impossibilities...i'd rather not engage in the ordinariness of shallow living. i'd rather 'be' in longing for a love that leads me to my authenticity, to a true sense of belonging in this world, than to accept the ordinary which only plays with our egos + can only give us the cultural illusion of monogamy's false sense of security. embracing the unknown requires that you freely dive deep into your own voids, into your own abyss.🕳️🧜🏽‍♀️☯️ • • ❤️💛💚🖤 #psychedeliclove #psychedelicintegration #psychonauts #consciousopenrelating #spiritualsovereignty #spiritualnonmonogamy #polyamory #openrelating #consciousness #loveisunconditional #loveisafrequency #relationshipanarchy #ethicalnonmonogamy #openrelationshipmodels #nonmonogamous #nonlineardynamics #loveisarhizome #connectivity #letabundanceflow #letgo #surrendermore #trusttheprocess #trusttheuniverse #whennothingiscertain #anythingispossible #selfhealing #goaskalice #vibeup #raiseyourvibes (at San Jose, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/B78-H9GHzBUMoqTho4Qae18x2Hpt28Esst6vfY0/?igshid=1n77s491vu5g3

🔥every time i choose to have the hard conversations, the ones where i'm worried that i'm going to trigger @biblicone with my radical honesty about why + how i'm changing, i just feel more seen + valued.🔥 • • i'm having to sit in a metaphorical empty room lately while i navigate trying to connect with someone. my past social programming is outdated. the signs + synchronicities + intuitions that i receive from source tell me to do things that make ZERO sense to me. but when i take that leap of faith into the void, my energies start moving + i have an entirely new understanding of what allowing 'source' energy to move through me looks + feels like. • • ...+ it would be disconnective to not be able to share all things with @biblicone. it would be inauthentic + playing small, + i know it would result in me or both of us, 'wanting' a drink, having excessive anxiety, and/or self-shaming...because why's the energy all weird?? we always feel it, so engaging in authentic, vulnerable communication + dialogue IS EVERYTHING. it's how we make this open marriage work for us again + again. we clear that stank ass, fearful air quick! • • it might have taken us 15 years to get to this level of authentic communication, but it's so worth the daily practice. we've built a foundation of trust + faith that i truly didn't know what possible + all while claiming our spiritual sovereignty, engaging our respective processes of individuation, + living our truths regardless of the diffuse, illusive, societal programming we had internalized while growing up. • • grateful for daring + sharing greatly... • • nothing real can be threatened. nothing unreal exists. herein lies the peace of god. -a course in miracles • • 💗 unconditional, expansive love + relating for the win every time! choose your partners wisely...💗 • • ❤️💛💚🖤 #polyamory #nonmonogamy #relationshipanarchy #openrelationships #consciousopenrelating #spiritualsovereignty #ethicalnonmonogamy #spiritualnonmonogamy #expansiverelating #expansivesouls #bethechange #openmarriages (at San Jose, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/B4gvYWrnygh/?igshid=15recu5exwlnu

☯️feminine receptivity.☯️ • • i just cleared some blocks with this past full moon. 🌕 it took weeks of sitting in some murky waters. struggling to stay still enough for some clarity to shine through. • • i’m awful at staying still. patriarchal (white) feminism taught me how to be more masculine, not more feminine. it taught me to deny my femininity so i could compete with men, as if i was a man. 🤯 • • there’s no healing in that paradigm. truly, intersectional feminism that builds on the true strengths of femininity is what can heal us. the healthy feminine balance to healthy masculine energies is left out of the conversation in patriarchal feminism. i just grew up thinking the only way to be a successful woman was to deny being a woman. to embrace yang energy instead of cultivating my yin energies. to become like my oppressors...ick! no more!!! • • so that’s going to change in my life. 👁 i’m going to learn to be receptive. 🔮 it’s a huge challenge for me and entirely out of my comfort zone. but, in recently healing a wound from some complex-ptsd that was unconsciously showing up for me for the past few weeks, i see that this is where my journey is taking me next. learning to be still. learning to receive. embracing feminine receptivity and submission. allowing the healthy masculine energies to shine by ‘doing.’ providing safety and security for healthy masculine and feminine energies to be cultivated and balanced within my connections. ⚡️⚡️⚡️ • • i’m so grateful for the lesson. @biblicone listens to my ramblings about how my current situation is ending a karmic cycle of rejection and abandonment that’s been festering since my childhood. how it’s complex because it’s actually a manifestation of me trying to fix a family dysfunction that i have no control over fixing. • • and to the man that triggered the wound to be healed, i’m grateful. and i’m healing. i’m finding stillness, i’m finding ‘presence,’ i’m accepting ‘being,’ and learning the art of feminine receptivity. 🌊🥰🙏🏽💚 • • this is how the universe is showing me its time to take up meditation. that it’s time to just be. • • ❤️💛💚🖤 #spiritualnonmonogamy #spiritualpolyamory #consciousopenrelating https://www.instagram.com/p/B1RjQ5Jhnua/?igshid=1ot3czkudfa7y

in my experience, the hard part is figuring out the blocks. for years, i followed the well-worn paths of the system, believing that some measure of happiness and peace would be at the end of a road of achievements and accumulation. i understand now how narrow and lazy that thinking was. as if life has a destination... • • the blocks for me were these system based conditionings (assumed monogamy, patriarchal (white) feminism, people pleasing, heteronormativity, political affiliations, coping mechanisms learned through trauma responses). and so removing all the blocks toward growth meant that i had to examine the intuitions that seemed to always want to lead me off ‘the path’ that was prescribed for me within the system, and instead trust the turns that seemed to be leading me into a dark forest... • • my intuitions and intentions for living my truth have always been strong. hindsight allows me to see that my higher self has always been guiding me. coming to accept that my path requires the mindset of a maverick and intentional shapeshifter keeps me flexible these days. the woods don’t seem so dark anymore because i know my eyes will adjust to the amount of light that’s in front of me in each moment. • • and i guess that where i’ve landed when i think about mustering my faith and staying true to my intuitions...i trust my eyes will continue to adjust to the light present in each moment. it’s been a full year of following this hypothesis (since my self-actualization event) and it’s (re)making and changing the landscapes on my journey in no small ways. psychedelics help me tune in. my connections and conscious relating trigger healing and reflection. and my devotion to honoring my authenticity continually grows... • • ❤️💛💚🖤 #leoportal #leoseason #relationshipanarchy #consciousopenrelating #spiritualnonmonogamy #polyamory #polyamorous #trustyourintuition #tuneintoyourwisdom #getlostinthewoods #rewilding #womenwhorunwithwolves #psychonaut #psychedelichealing #psychedeliclove #befearlessbefree #theuniversehasyourback (at Avenue of the Giants) https://www.instagram.com/p/B0g52ahFm3k/?igshid=wr20cbdyimd7

💚there’s always so much abundant, lush love surrounding us...tune in!💚 • • ⚡️👁🦁🦀🙏🏽🌲☀️🐺🧬✨💞🥰⚡️ • • ❤️💛💚🖤 #relationshipanarchy #polyamory #consciousopenrelating #poly #relationshipanarchist #polyamorous #befearlessbefree #mommaearthmagick #loveisapsychedelic #psychonaut #befree #liveyourtruth #selfloveisspirituality #selfacceptance #selfknowledge #selfmastery #stayopen #leoseason #leoandcancer #camping #norcal #humboldtredwoodsstatepark #avenueofthegiants #mysticallove #psychedeliclove #consciousness #consciousnessistherevolution #rhizomes #universalconsciousness (at Humboldt Redwoods State Park) https://www.instagram.com/p/B0ZlwdIFvde/?igshid=1q3h3sch4rxhf

🌚new moon reflections🌚 ....for future manifesting... • • if there is such a thing as spiritual non-monogamy, i would say that’s the work that @biblicone and i do together in our partnership. it’s more than an ethical and radically honest version of non-monogamy. it’s one where we’re consciously committed to doing the work of healing. 🥰 • • ...the work of healing, for us, is navigating our own processes of individuation and learning how to heal on our own. we support one another, honor, and respect that our paths are often divergent as we figure ourselves out. 🧐 • • we root out our egos and are learning to heal our wounds. it’s crazy how much of my fear-based behavior was rooted in the wounding of being rejected in my childhood and abandoned in adulthood by a close family member. 🙄 • • for years, i unconsciously sought out connections that repeated those cycles. reliving that rejection and abandonment over and over again as an unconscious adult. non-monogamy helps me heal. period. i would never be able to consciously navigate these spaces and observe my own behaviors that were rooted in fear without the experiences i’ve had living non-monogamously. 🥰🙏🏽💚 • • the upside? once you can be aware of and see 👀 these behaviors play out in cycles, you can heal and end the cycle. you learn to control your mind 🧠 and thinking so it doesn’t control you. you can embody unconditional love and learn to accept others in ways that were unimaginable to your previously ego-driven self. • • and the whole process feels like absolute magick. the positivity begets more positivity, which then starts positively transforming your life and relationships more and more...💗🌊✨ • • and best of all...you cease being toxic. to yourself and every connection you intentionally cultivate. because you know that any negativity you’re experiencing means you have something further to heal within your self and so you do. and the work gets easier and easier to do...🔮💓 • • ❤️💛💚🖤 #relationshipanarchy #consciousopenrelating #ethicalnonmonogamy #polyamorous #spiritualnonmonogamy #seepastyourego #mooncycles #unconditionallove #trusttheprocess #healyoursoul #newmoon #abundancemindset #changeistheonlyconstant https://www.instagram.com/p/Bv4rQw_BXijLhRFnqBI8Y6WHWYjnGZZ88V3KWY0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=419uhbxtfhdl