Grief does get easier.....
This weekend I am heading back to my home town to see my grandparents as I haven’t seen them in a while and it will be the first time without Mr with me since my uncle passed away.
I always struggle to walk into my grandparents house because I still think he is in the little conservatory and I would rush to go and see him.
Everyone always said to me that when a loved one is gone, missing them will become easier and you just learn how to miss him but each day after their death it’s always one day more since you last saw them.
I keep thinking this time last year he was with us and I could have a conversation with him. I will always remember how he looked at me, his voice and everything about him.
Adrian Richards will always be my hero in heaven. He was the first uncle of mine to meet my first boyfriend and took us out for an expensive meal at a lovely London restaurant, he was the only person who understood about the issues I had with my dad and he was the one who listen to me when I just wanted to open up to someone other than my mum.
Those memories will stay with me everyday and I know he is at peace as he is no longer in pain anymore so things do become easier. You learn to love someone when they are far away and they will always love you back no matter what you do in life.
Grief effects people in different ways and even to this day I still cry over him, look at the pictures on the wall of him wondering what he would say to me if he was here but the happy memories I had with him makes me feel better 😌