#choosingme

2015 was probably the last good experience I had in therapy after that thing happened. I still think about it, not as much as before but it comes up now and then. I live in the same environment so i’m often nervous about my reaction to seeing people that hurt me (and maybe I also hurt). 

Coping has been rlly hard and i’ve made some rlly unhealthy choices. 

I’m in a v different place now in my life, but I’m back in therapy b/c sometimes those insecurities from my past creep up/spill over into the present. There are other factors/dynamics that are hard to deal with as well. 

A big part of my life I’ve had to deal with my dad’s substance abuse that not only impacted our relationship but also my introduction to a romantic relationship/partnership having watched my parents struggle to blend their lives together. Mom mostly taking a leading role while I became like a 3rd parent to my siblings. 

I. Am. In. Love. With… You

I am in love with your courage, your strength, and your bravery.

I am amazed by the fact you have stood up against The Biggest Goliath in your life.

You stood, and you fought.

You were stabbed, and instead of putting a bandage on the many wounds you already had, you decided to let this one bleed. "No more pretending’’, you said.

Instead of hiding, you spoke your truth.

It cost you your strength and energy, but you held up your sword and you fought.

You were spat on, and instead of revenge, you washed your face.

I am truly amazed by your bravery.

The world turned against you...and you still decided to stay while making the world turn to your advantage!

You told the devil himself that you will Never Be nor Stay Silent.

So, you continue to stand, and to fight!

Samantha Janvier, you are courageous for standing against the people who had the magical password to your heart. You stood against the people who you have trusted with your whole life. You stood against the people who have created you... you stood, and you fought for your truth, your inner peace, and for... YOU.

You have fought for you.

And for that, I. Am. In. Love. With. You.

I picked up my therapy dog and we are going to go see if she was right🤷‍♀️🤣🤣🤣It’s going to be a great day 🤣Just a #SingleGal 🙋🏻‍♀️my #SingleLifeChoices 💯🎯 & #ChoosingMe #ADayInMySingleLife #TakingIt1DayAtATime #Grateful #HotMessSingleLifeChoices #TakingCareOfMyIssues #LookForThePositive #SelfCare #GodLoveAndLaughter #LovingMySingleLife #CelebrateLifeTheWayIWant #TellFriendsYouLoveThem…