2015 was probably the last good experience I had in therapy after that thing happened. I still think about it, not as much as before but it comes up now and then. I live in the same environment so i’m often nervous about my reaction to seeing people that hurt me (and maybe I also hurt).
Coping has been rlly hard and i’ve made some rlly unhealthy choices.
I’m in a v different place now in my life, but I’m back in therapy b/c sometimes those insecurities from my past creep up/spill over into the present. There are other factors/dynamics that are hard to deal with as well.
A big part of my life I’ve had to deal with my dad’s substance abuse that not only impacted our relationship but also my introduction to a romantic relationship/partnership having watched my parents struggle to blend their lives together. Mom mostly taking a leading role while I became like a 3rd parent to my siblings.
I want my current relationship to not only be successful but healthy. I want to accept and love myself because I have worked v hard to get here. There have been numerous times I’ve thought of giving up. Making sure I had a beneficiary assigned to all my accounts cause when I’d decide to leave everyone else would be financially comfortable... this is hard to admit.
2087
yousharknotpass
pixelskylines
annaxmalina
blakekathryn
jacobvanloon
