Love Always

You'll never stop blaming me for not being able to get over things and I'll never stop blaming you for not understanding that you shattered my heart.

“Imagine craving love so badly that you just fall in love with whoever loves you.”

“How dare you fall apart. You don’t do that. You help people keep it together. You comfort the broken. Don’t you dare be weak and fall apart. You’re not allowed to.”

You say you want to know everything about me but could you handle everything about me? Could you take all the lies I've told, all the hearts I've broke, all the terrible words I've said or the horrible things I've wrote or would the hard part be stomaching why I lied in the first place, the moments my heart broke, the terrible words that have pierced my soul or the horrible things I've read? Things may seem simple, very surface, enjoyable almost but it's a lot deeper than meets the eye. Only the ocean understands this depth because most people are too afraid of drowning.

It's been a long time since I've been in pain so it's been a long time since I've written anything..

“So light up our bridge one more time for me baby. Instead of fighting the flames I’ll be standing on the other side this time watching that bitch burn”

“You don’t know real pain until you’re begging God to rip someone from your grasps because you don’t have it in you to let them go but you’re too tired to hurt anymore.”

“You could be anything in the world and what you want most is to be his? Babygirl, don’t sell yourself so short, you were made for greater things than he could ever imagine.”

“I would have given everything to you but maybe that’s why it didn’t work out because you couldn’t handle being loved like that and I would have lost every part of me in the process.”

“‪There’s so many times I thought to myself ‘I’ll never make it through this’ but here I am standing on the other side, smiling, thinking, ‘how could I ever believe myself to be so weak?’”

“If being drunk causes you not to talk to me then please get drunk for the rest of your life.”

That's the difference between my mistake and your mistake. Mine will only follow until I leave you. Yours will follow you for a lifetime.

“Love will find you when you find yourself.”

“I shouldn’t want to love you, a love like that again could kill me.”

“If the only thing love is ever going to do is shatter my heart, cloud my mind and make my bones ache then I don’t want it. I used to think feeling like this was such a beautiful blessing but it seems like I can’t feel this way for anyone without it destroying me. My heart is tired, my mind just wants some peace and my bones need relief from all this pressure.”