#chapter 86

So, we can probably all agree that Yuri noticing that Loid’s arm was twitching and checking him for an injury is the closest thing we’ve had so far to this whole spies and secrets thing coming into the open, right?

Well, I wanted to wax poetic about what this scene might represent for a moment.

Twilight, as we know in these chapters, is struggling with his own ‘weakness’ (ie his actual wants as a member of the Forger family to not break up/ hurt the family unit which includes Yuri). This weakness is personified by the wound on his arm. The injury is proof that he is human, that despite Twilight’s best intentions, he is not perfect…

But the thing is, he’s only just barely covering all of this up.

The wound on his arm is the personification of the ‘weakness’ and feelings of Loid Forger, the family man, the one who truly cares about Yor and Anya. Which means that Twilight is the disguise he uses to cover up that part of himself.

I know the expression is to ‘put on a face’ but that’s literally what he’s doing here. He’s attempting to hide his true feelings, which yeah sure is a thing he does all the time, but the thing about it this time is that this ‘weakness’, his true feelings, are still showing through. They are still noticeable.

Twilight falling to his knees in front of Yor is a perfect example of this. His true feelings (feeling safe and relaxed around his wife) leaking through.

And he doesn’t dress the wound before coming home either. Which in this metaphor would be equivalent to addressing and trying to understand his ‘weakness’, but instead he ignores it. Slaps a disguise over it and leaves it to be ignored.

The cover-up Twilight puts on his wound is the same as the lies he tells himself. They are thin, and easy to break, and have to be consciously put on by Twilight.