#cembalos

Although I tend to date more regularly than my friends, I still feel that I never see men going out with. Find someone you can actually carry on a more than decent conversation with is a full time job. So You'd think that when I meet someone I can do it with, which also has the looks and the attractive shyness, I'd be all over the situation. I missed the mark. , I went to a model casting call in Soho one night, after being recruited by a woman at the mall who said I had one I was not sure what it would be as "interesting look.", But when I came where everything seemed to be legit. I was measured, asked my breast size cup, and taken into a room with a bunch of other people with "interesting look." Because we were viewed by the order in which we arrived we were asked to sit in specific places. I was sitting beside this really cute, really tall (6'2 "is what he said) Latino gentleman in black pants. He immediately opened up conversations with me, and I am the person who is always talking to strangers and make friends in all environments, I obliged of course. We realized very quickly that room began to fill up that we will probably be there for a while. We talked about the low budget yet-to-be-released music videos that the company showed us. Soon after, it was the movie "Zoolander". : As minutes passed and the conversation continued the thought came to me: To flirt or not to flirt I could not decide or not to be my flirtatiously offensive himself with this cutie?. His name was Jacob and I liked his shy temperament. He seemed to be flirting with me, first asking me how old I was and told me that I looked much younger. He then pretended not to like that he looks older then he is (who is younger than me), but I could tell he liked it. On one occasion he gave me the biggest red flag to flirt with him and I did not bring it up, "Do you know a really good poetry or spoken word restaurant, he asked." Um ... not really. Ugh ... 'Was my stupid answers. "Because I would really like to go to one soon. "" I know someone who knows where it is, I believe in Harlem or something similar. "" Yes, I have tried to find one for a while. "" Really why.? Are you writing spoken word? "Jacob then proceeded to tell me something and at that moment I mentally re-evaluated my answers. I thought at that point I should have at least said, "Well, I do not know any spoken word spots right now. Why have not we change the code and if I find a place I'll call you, and if you find a place you can call me. We can also go check it out together. And in the meantime, if you just want to call me or do something else, you have my number "(smiles) What happened to regular flirtatious me in the presence of this. COI sweetie? Perhaps his shyness dictated my actions. A girl never want to be too forward with a guy, especially if you already see that he is a little scared about approaching people. But sometimes it is hard to read unless a guy is just being friendly or if he is in you and are too afraid to take the first step. Despite the difficulty, I usually manage to feel something and take a step forward in making him my "boo". I remember that the worst that can happen is that he will reject me and maybe even try to take a cheap shot at my confidence, but hey - who cares what strangers say you would never see them again.? Take the chance. I'm disappointed in my failure to pick up any tips Jacob dropped, and I'm disappointed in my failure to take a chance. New Yorkers complain so much about not being able to find someone in a city of 8 million people. I had someone in my middle that I can easily laughed and joked with, conversing with non-stop, which was attractive and had a job. . (! $ 795 for comp cards Give me a break) I was crazy to let him leave without getting his number I did not even get a job with a modeling agency The up side to this pathetic story is that he tell me he was wroks. Maybe one of these days I will upgrade to semi-stalker and get gutsy enough to stop by his job while I'm "near", or so I'll say.