What my second semester taught me
This semester was hell. I suffered so much and throughout all the suffering I didn’t realize that I was not okay. But now that the semester has ended. I am here to tell you what I learned and how I am planning to make the next semester better.
1. Worrying about the future won’t change anything now but stress the shit out of you. All I kept doing this semester was worrying and worrying and not doing anything to change my worries much.
2. I can’t do it all. As much as I’d love to volunteer at two different places, have two jobs, and keep up with almost 8 classes and take care of myself, I just can’t do it all. I need a break from always wanting to fill my schedule up with work to do.
3. Procrastinating and not getting anything done. I am actually surprised I passed my semester with good grades. All I did was procrastinate, avoid classes ans submit things late. That is when I should have know I was overwhelmed and I needed a break from it all and just focus on one thing at a time.
4. Neglecting myself. I neglected my health, my mental health and my soul and spiritual peace. I started to isolate myself and sleeping in and not wanting to do anything. I was triggered so many times this semester this is incredible, which made me realize I have to work my childhood traumas if I wanna get anywhere in life. Also the constant fatigue from health problems played a role
5. Not knowing what i truly wanted to do. Having clear goals or an idea of the direction you are heading is really important it guides you to wherever you need to be in life. But i didn’t have any of that this last semester. I was just going with the flow which hurt my grades and myself. I always did my best when I had a goal in mind even when I did (this last semester) I was disciplined enough to want it badly that when I got it it would satisfy my hunger. I just lived day to day as if I was trying to survive it.
5. Not being disciplined with yourself. I always believed in disciplining yourself helps you reach way more than waiting on motivation to knock on your door. I let myself go too much that by the end of the semester I legit didn’t do anything, I didn’t take anything seriously and it hurt my grades a tad but even then I tell myself I could have done better.
6. Hanging with the wrong crowd. I wouldn’t say the people I hanged with are bad but they didn’t have clear cut goals and didn’t mainly know what they wanted and I spend my time with them. I get influenced easily and being lazy and joking about y circumstances I started doing more and more as I would hang out with them.
8. Distractions. I get distracted easily one of the perks of having ADHD. my phone played a major role in this. I have to learn that there’s way more waiting for me in the real world than being constantly on my phone and not being able to function when I don’t have it on me.
9. Not learning from my mistakes and not bettering myself. like I said, I made the same mistakes and for some reason wasn’t in the right mindset to better myself which honestly damaged me.
10. The importance of financial stability. Not having enough money, I think most of y’all can relate to this. I went by my semester broke tho I had two jobs. I couldn’t even afford to pay for my metro card. I spent my money on things I didn’t need and later regretted my choices. Learning to save money is one of my plans for the next month.
for next semester, I am going to do better that I know. Also, a final tip is to write down an analysis of your semester write everything that you feel you did well on and that could be improve. I recommend to write 12 goals and also figure out how are you going to achieve them in one month. That is what I did for this semester and I am attracting only good energy on this semester.