#catargott

@wilfriede this one is for you too since your questions overlapped exactly lmao! thank you both for playing!

20: What’s the story behind your pen name?

this is what i like to call a “one of the many ways kara could have revealed herself but they fucking blew it” minific:

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She lands heavy on the balcony, kneeling hard when one leg buckles under her momentum. The wound at her temple pulses with an unfamiliar pain that she barely registers. Flight has caused blood to streak sideways across her face: her eyes burn and her vision blurs as she comes to a violent stop, very nearly crashing through the paneled glass of Lena’s office. Lena jumps at the sound of Supergirl’s boots fracturing the stone of her balcony. She spins on the spot, glass of water slipping from her hand, and hears her name.

“Lena,” the hero gasps, and her voice is fraught with the tension of tears only barely held back. “You--” she cuts herself short with the effort it takes to pull herself to her feet.

Lena’s eyes widen at the sight before her. “Supergirl. Oh my God.” Her legs propel her forward and onto the balcony before she even registers her own movement. Her hands reach toward Supergirl as she moves, like she wants to-- she doesn’t know what. Wipe Supergirl’s blood away? Tend to her wounds? What can Lena’s two hands do for a near-invincible woman? She self-consciously drops them to her sides and then her thoughts jumble and take off racing, because she looks at Supergirl-- really looks at her-- and she’s hurt. “You’re bleeding,” Lena exhales.

“There was-- I’m so sorry for coming here, I just had to know that you--” Supergirl is babbling now, panic in her voice as she pushes a hand through her hair and darts her eyes frantically about like she’s scanning the office for incoming threats. She stops, then starts again, another apology slipping from her lips, when Lena interrupts her.

“Hey,” Lena says gently. Supergirl doesn’t meet her eyes, doesn’t move, and Lena takes a necessary gamble. She steps forward, closes the distance between them, and settles her palm gently against Supergirl’s trembling wrist. “Hey, don’t apologize. What happened?”

Supergirl closes her eyes at the touch, and then squeezes them tightly as she tries to get her erratic breathing under control. Lena’s heart beats hard as she waits for a response, and jumps into her throat when the blonde begins to speak in a voice so small and defeated that Lena barely recognizes it. 

“An alien that was--- it could-- he knew my nightmares, my worst fears, and you were-” she stops herself, and takes a deep breath in before continuing in a more level voice. “You were.... I couldn’t save you,” the words tumble from the Kryptonian’s lips like a confession she’s been trying to deny for a lifetime. “They had you, and I couldn’t get there in time, and I couldn’t save you.” Her eyes open, and she looks hazily toward Lena for the first time since she came hurtling down to the balcony. The implications of this, of Lena’s peril being Supergirl’s worst nightmare, is beyond what the brunette is prepared to consider right now. She brushes past it and aims for comfort instead.

“It wasn’t real,” Lena says, pressing her fingers firmly against the hot skin of the hero’s arm. “I’ve been here all day. Nothing happened to me.” The blonde doesn’t look convinced, and her hands still shake beneath Lena’s touch. Lena’s heart aches with each beat. “Supergirl, look at me.”

“You don’t understand, Lena, I promised you I would always protect you, and I---” she freezes. A beat of silence hangs heavy as Supergirl’s eyes dart up to meet Lena’s and she realizes what she’s just said.

oh GOD yes absolutely 100% this could very easily be both lena and kara up there in that draughty little mountain cabin

It’s like... exactly what I wanted in terms of how they heal and just how they react and I swear to god I cried every line I read. There was a little dry spell at one point and then you went and wrote about Kara smelling the eucalyptus she hadn’t in a year and I started sobbing

Ugh gosh it was just so so good because the characterization was there and the awkward, stilted conversations and interactions paired the emotion-packed in-between truces they had served as such a huge juxtaposition. I just love it so so much because of how much the scenes and their emotions contrasted between each scene switch because you could tell time had passed and that things had changed just that little bit.

Everything about it is just so so good and you wrote out their emotions and dialogue so well; the dialogue was interspersed with their own thoughts and it was *chefs kiss*. I mean, like, it was just so beautifully done and you could see the conflict and you could see into each of their thoughts.

Gosh, the beginning and basically the entire thing was so painful but the ending made me cry again because it’s so happy and simple and they’re in this new reality, so it’s like a fresh start. Everything they had done before would probably be done again except altered just a little bit and you can already tell it’s gonna be even better.

Anyway, YES that was so beautifully done and everything was so gorgeous, gosh! And I am very emotional now but that was also so cathartic to read so thank you a million times <3

Okay honestly @catargott I let this sit in my inbox for a few days so I could keep rereading it and I still don’t have anything clever to say that isn’t just a lot of keysmashing and blown away grinning and just general happiness so THANK YOU for this. I’m super super happy you liked it and incredibly pleased that I have made you feel An Emotion

like i cannot put into words how fluttery your art makes me feel it’s just so good hnnng and the emotions you put into their faces are *chefs kiss* absolutely GLORIOUS

anyway i hope you have a good day! please stay safe wherever you are :)

I was definitely still apprehensive about getting started on it (and I'm still not sure why) but then I read the very first scene and I fell in love. The last line, "Her favorite part was feeling, for just a few moments, like she was unstoppable." hit me so hard and got me hooked. Then I was a little less apprehensive but still very much worried about time. And then somehow I read through two full scenes without blinking and I just want to say that after the first chapter, I'm in love <3 (2/2) 

Awww thanks so much, really glad you finally took a chance on it and you’re liking it. hope you continue to enjoy it!! i actually get that a lot lmfao, people are always like the summary for this is fucking terrible but i enjoyed it (im kidding, everyone is usually nicer :p). but! i do get a lot of ‘i didn’t think i would find this interesting’ lmao. which tells me im absolute garbage at tagging/summaries.

if anyone wants to write my summaries for me lemme know, i’ll pay u in love and carry u in rocket league.