#cal berkeley

It’s okay when I use social media to study, but they’re (My random family) still following me around, making me pass out (No, not in a fun way) for no good reason, and demanding I do more academia.

They’re out of control.

Have you ever read that book “Go Ask Alice?” My life is pretty much like, Less than Zero/Go Ask Alice with a Black American girl (me). It’s literally so dark.

If they would just leave me alone and let me eat my fruits and veggies in peace, then I would go to Trader Joe’s more often, like we used to, and have more Molly, L$D (without passing out), and higher quality THC in my diet. I still need time to explore and experience the drug wheel.

Okay. So, there’s this writer Cat Marnell, right? I remember balancing a lighter course load and reading her blog posts. Some of the comments were like, “How would it be possible for everything to be dark from blackout curtains and there’s spotty Wi-Fi, yet you continuously post???”

I wish I didn’t understand why it was so captivating and real, yet hard to convey and write so beautifully when one is constantly in and out of states of consciousness (Not for fun) due to family members who play too much!!

My life is literally like The Bell Jar meets Less Than Zero meets Go Ask Alice with a healthy amount of Cat Marnell’s writing/internet persona. There’s even literal legitimate Vyvanse prescriptions and shady celebrity politicians involved…

Oh, to be a California Jewish/Christian American princess!!

At Cal/Harvard (traveling back and forth while thinking I was in Berkeley the whole time) I was in organic chemistry lab and they made the Black girl, White girl, Asian girl and Asian guy, and even the Mixed race people, pass out. Like, each and every one of us in that lab had a family member randomly show up and demand we study at the laboratory so they can get drugs fresh from the factory. They don’t even give me half the stuff they provide. They used to try to switch theirs for mine, which confirmed to me that they’re evil and dying and going to hell before they accept salvation; I’ve literally told them they need to be baptized in Jesus’ name. Anyway. So I come to consciousness in lab/study group, and I’m literally watching some of my peers coming to consciousness after passing out and I’m like, “I hope y’all aren’t just letting them make you pass out for drugs! We’re the ones who literally make the drugs and we’re literally drug dealers. They shouldn’t be able to just make us pass out like that!”

We all passed out again. Someone else’s relative showed up demanding more drugs and more lab reports from one of my peers, so we all just kept working…

I’m on a weird schedule these days and they have not yet stopped abusing high technology in general, smart glasses, etc. I still haven’t figured out what kind of court to take them to so I can make them stop making me pass out for no good reason. What’s a good reason to use these sedatives? The sedatives are supposed to be used to avoid discomfort and promote a healthy and balanced lifestyle. They still just use it for whatever and then randomly demand that I do more academia. It’s like Cal/Yale/Stanford/Harvard branded version of like The Bell Jar meets Less Than Zero meets Go Ask Alice, with a healthy amount of Cat Marnell’s writing/internet persona.

I literally pray to God to make it out of Yugoslavia alive.

They’re also getting on my nerves with this whole Coco-Chanel-frees-up-everybody-from-the-concentration-camp stuff too. Yugoslavia is a state of mind that I never wanted to experience; at times it seems like even Vienna couldn’t/wouldn’t be able to help, like I’d literally have to fly to heaven and get God himself to show up as human Jesus Christ to make them leave me alone.

My rank and security clearance is way too high for this foolery.

#dark

#JewishAmericanPrincess

#antisemitismisnotcute

#leavemealone

#thebelljar

#goaskalice

#lessthanzero

#CatMarnell

#kkg

#kappakappagamma

Hope everything is going well for y’all!