#breaup

I haven’t been able to stop thinking about you since I met you that cold autumn night. The difference is that I barely knew who you were then. Now...it’s very different. When we were together I felt I was allowed to think about you whenever I wanted, I could imagine things, fantasize, remember, recall. Anything and everything was allowed, permissible, even encouraged. What objection could there be to two people thinking fondly of each other?

But now...I don’t have that pure joy when I think of you, because I don’t have that reason, or permission, to look back at our memories. There’s still joy, but it is quickly followed by guild, or bitterness, or frustration. All of those feelings boil down to the same underlying emotion: sadness.

I’ve been thinking of you everyday and sometimes I think of you less, certain things make me remember you.

I’ve no good reason to think of you besides the fact that I always do, so I’ve started saying “nothing” when asked about what’s on my mind.

even when I talk to him

and when I look into his eyes

I'm already looking into yours

I know that you're so far away

and that I'll never be able to touch you

And that's why I tell myself this is right

And that I'm doing nothing wrong

Cuz when I think of you

I'm setting waves in motion

Creating hurricanes

And sending tornadoes everywhere

When I think of you

my heart is blossoming

like the flowers of the spring

and floating like pollen in the air

But when I look at him

All I feel is human,

And what it could be with a boy

Because you're not here to hold me, and he's here every night

I've told myself that I'm doing nothing wrong,

And isn't that the truth?

You tell me we're just friends

As you go and break my heart again

But when I think of you

I'm setting waves in motion

Creating hurricanes

And sending tornadoes everywhere

When I think of you

my heart is blossoming

like the flowers of the spring

and floating like pollen in the air

But when I look at him

All I feel is human, and that's all I want to be

But when I look at him

All I feel is human, and that's all I want to be

So don't you dare walk into my life and whisper the truth to me,

I don't want to hear it from you, don' t want to smell you near

because you are my everything, even though you are my nothing,