Day One
So day one is done and dusted and I can honestly say that it lived up to all of my fears! Getting dressed and ready for today was really horrible, I was having a major anxiety attack just thinking that I would have to walk into varsity today looking as though I had just come from the club! (Cringe!). Even though I knew that this would not happen, I was having these fears that I would get to Vega today and I would be the only one doing the intervention and everyone else would just be their normal selves! But putting those fears aside I put my tightest jeans on and a top which had a completely open back. I also put about a kg of make-up on, straightened my hair and put my highest heels on. When this “beautifying” process was done I looked in the mirror and all I could think was that, "I look like a 2 cent whore" (my words exactly). Even though I felt that I looked terrible, what really struck me is that from multiple people I received words of positivity. I received compliments! “Wow you look so nice!” “Oh my word you look so pretty” “I love your make-up” and throughout all of these words of positivity I kept thinking to myself, “well shit did I really look that bad before!” I think the main thing that I don’t understand is why is it that someone receives compliments on their looks when they are all made up and yet not when they are just normal? Am I not pretty when I’m normal? Do I not look nice when I’m wearing everyday clothes? I do understand that the words from people were words of positivity and they are probably just not used to seeing me like that so they recognise the change and verify it with a compliment. But that’s not me, this girl who is all made up, who cant even close her eyes properly because she has that much mascara on, that’s not me! I must admit I feel my most beautiful and pretty when I do not have any makeup on and my hair is just natural and it actually frightens me that we live in a world where that is not complimented.
My hopes for tomorrow are that I will not feel as terrible about myself as I did today and that I find a better pair of high heels to wear, because flip my feet are sore!














