"Oh no you can't leave looking like that"

So today was the last day of our body uncomfortable intervention, and I couldn't be more thrilled ! These 10 days have been extremely difficult for me, I have had my good times where I've enjoyed the process however these moments were rare, ultimately I found these 10 days very hard but I am thankful for the lessons that I've learnt throughout these 10 days. Today was a very long day at Vega, I put my makeup on for the last time, besides the eye shadow as I think I'm actually allergic to it. I put on my tightest pair of jeans and went to varsity for the last time as my "I'm so pretty" self. When I woke up this morning I was so excited that tomorrow I could go back to my natural and true self. The day itself was pretty uneventful I went to varsity for 4 hours and then went to the mall to run some errands for my mom. As soon as I was finished with that I rushed home and the second I arrived at home I washed my face, ripped my jeans off and put on pajama pants and put my hair in a pony. This really was the best moment that I've had in the last few weeks. Throughout these 10 days the few things that I've learnt include to not be as judgmental towards people who do enjoy getting all dressed up. I've also gained a bit more of an appreciation for makeup and the "prettier" things in life. I've also learnt that everyone has a different view of what beauty is and that's okay. All in all these past view days have made me realize that I enjoy the person that I am and that I will continue to keep my views on what I see as beautiful. These 10 days have been difficult for me as I am not this dolled and dressed up person but I have learnt that differences are okay and I think that's what the real aim of the body uncomfortable was, to see that what makes us uncomfortable is normal for some other people and that's okay.

So today for some strange reason my feet were just not having heels! The second that I put my heels on this morning my feet were in extreme amounts of pain, it's almost as if they were telling me that they're done! I even had to change into slops half way through the day. But besides that I am so excited that there is only one day of this intervention left and I can go back to wearing no makeup and comfortable clothes ! Yesterday I didn't put on any eye makeup as over the last 8 days I've started getting these red lines underneath my eyes and on Monday they started becoming itchy so I thought I best not put on any more eye makeup. I must admit this morning when I woke up I felt as though I am loosing momentum, I just don't have the energy to do this whole dressing up thing any more so I'm really happy that there is only one day left! Today was a pretty uneventful day, I mostly stayed at home and caught up on series that I had missed over the past few weeks due to learning for tests and finishing assignments. In creative development this afternoon we did have a really interesting talk by Andrew Swanepoel. He spoke about performance art and the artists who influenced him. He also discussed and showcased his performance art which made me feel that what we as a class are doing with our 10 day intervention is extremely inferior compared to his work ! He completely immerses himself in that performance and what it requires. I completely admire his dedication to his artwork. I can only imagine how difficulty it is for him to do these performances if I feel as though what I'm doing is difficult, and my intervention doesn't even come close ! As I said I am really excited for tomorrow to be our last day ! I can't wait to just be myself again and be completely relaxed with my appearance and the way I dress. I can tell you one thing that after this intervention I'm not going to be wearing makeup for a while !

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Today wasn't such a frustrating and uncomfortable day. As I said before I am really starting to get used to this whole dressed up thing. Doing my makeup every morning really has worked its way into my daily routine, I now just know that I have to do it and I don't have to mentally prepare myself to do it. I've even gotten so good (still a few mistakes here and there) at it that I don't need to follow along with YouTube videos anymore. I've noticed that my feet have even started getting used to heels, they still really hurt after a long day of walking in them but they take longer to get to that painful point. My first interaction today started with the panel beater for my car, that was a bit awkward! He was of average height but with my heels on I towered over him! He even said to me "Wow you're so tall" (I've been getting this a lot during this intervention) After that I went to La Lucia to get my eyes tested and again I got the "you are really tall" (thanks I think that we've established that!) I find myself caring a lot less what people think now, I do still get embarrassed, especially when you are walking with heels on and they're making a noise on the floor as you walk. That kind of forces everyone to look at you and that's not my favorite! However I have noticed that people seeing me with mountains of makeup on and looking all dressed up is not bothering as much as it did. Tomorrow there will only be 2 more days of this intervention! I'm really looking forward to get back to my true self, who is someone who is natural and enjoys the no fuss approach but who also now has an appreciation for makeup and getting dressed up.

Tomorrow I would have reached day 8 of this intervention which would mean that I would have 3 more days to go. So far I have realized that this whole getting dressed up routine takes a lot of work but it’s not as terrible as I thought. I still would never wear heels on a daily basis or such tight outfits or the amount of makeup that I’m wearing but I think I’ve realized that I shouldn’t judge people based off the fact that they like getting a bit more dressed up than I do. I feel as though I now have a bit more appreciation for the “pretty” things in life.

I'm wearing these shoes today and I can already sense that my feet are going to hate me. Walking around today is going to take immense concentration. Let's just hope that I don't fall and break my ankles !

Today was probably all and all the worst day I've had while doing this intervention. Today I had to try and integrate the "I'm so pretty" version of myself with my everyday and outside varsity life, and it was really hard! Today was the first day that my mom had seen me all dressed up and participating in this intervention, and her reaction was priceless. The second she saw me she burst out laughing, not in a "you look so funny and gross" way but in a "this is strange" way. At first she said that I looked so different but throughout the day she got used to it. I really did not want to go out in public all dressed up and was trying to think of every excuse not to go out! Ultimately my mom forced me to go to Woolworths with her and it was a nightmare. I felt as though everyone was staring at me and judging me solely based on what I was wearing. My mom told me just to ignore them but I couldn't. From this you are all probably thinking "wait I thought that she was the person who didn't care what anyone thought" and I am that person, I was just so embarrassed. Ultimately because I think that if I saw someone all dressed up with heels on and extreme amounts of makeup on, I myself would judge them, I would judge myself right now, and that's not a nice feeling. Throughout the day I got a lot of "wow you're so tall" which made me just want to rip my heels off but I tried to push through as much as possible. My hopes for tomorrow is that I re-find that acceptance of this intervention that I was starting to achieve on day three. From this point on I've decided that I am going to make a concerted effort to just, as my mom says "go with the flow" and not fight this process anymore. I ultimately want this to be a positive learning experience for me and I hope that tomorrow I will start to achieve that! 💅🏻💋💄👠(just thought that I'd throw those in there just for fun)

I am really not looking forward to tomorrow! Tomorrow is Saturday and I feel as though that the weekend will be the hardest days to stick to this intervention! The weekend are the days that I use to go out with my friends and family, and I’m actually really scared to go out and “show” the public my “pretty” and dressed up self. Wish me luck !

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The Devil Wears Prada- Meryl Streep

My goal for tomorrow is to get back on track with my intervention. I hope that it will be a smooth transition back into the “I’m so pretty” mode and that I hopefully started enjoying and accepting this process.

PS: if these pictures ever are revealed, the photographers told me to make that face and pose that way, I swear!

So this is a close up of my eye makeup for today ! I must say that I never wear this much makeup EVER! I have eye shadow on top of eye shadow on top of more eye shadow ! Oh and for everyone who is looking at this picture please take note of my mascara ! The amount of times my eyes have gotten stuck together is more than I can count ! I have now had to endure this for three days and I actually take my hat off to girls who do this every day! You girls have patience, discipline and immense will power to not rub your eyes when they're itchy than I can only aspire too.

Direct quote from one of my fellow students.

Hopefully tomorrow I will begin to accept this getting dolled up process a bit more and slowly allow it to work its way into my routine even more.Hey after this I might even become a makeup artist ?……….Yeah…..Noooooo.

For tomorrow I've decided that I'm going for it! The past two days I've played it a bit safe by wearing pants and a top, but tomorrow I'm going to wear a VERY tight and short dress. Lets hope that I find the courage somewhere to do this! Wish me luck.......lots of it.