#bitchery

The triage nurse was so good omg. Probably my best interaction with a nurse ever. He was kind and gentle and quiet and held my hand while i cried. He got me into a room right away (there was a 4 hour wait) and got me water and brought troy back to me.

The dr came in within half an hour and the first thing she said was that the triage nurse was really worried about me and my frame of mind. I cried a little. We went over every and she said she'd like to admit me but she wanted to talk to an actual psych dr first. So she went off to make phone calls.

She came back with the news that she'd gotten hold of my actual psych dr in lloyd and he wanted me to travel there for assessment and treatment. (2 hour drive) so they were going to get an ambulance and send me off and troy was going to grab sonnet and meet us there. Only the ambulance keeps not showing up and finally troy just asks if he can drive me and they say yes

So we grab sonnet, grab food and get on the road and its a good drive until we hit fog. Heavy fog. But eventually we get to lloyd and omg its a tiny shitty little hospital.

They leave me in the waiting room (which is usually a no no for psych cases) and let me know my dr has left the hospital but they are sure he will be back soon.

He shows up and we talk and talk and talk. He asks me what i want to do. I want to die. I need him to help me not do that. He asks me this in a couple ways. I finally realize hes asking me what i want to do for treatment. I don't fucking know, this part is your job buddy. He eventually decides to change my meds and see if another hospital has a bed for me. (Thats right we drove two hours to get told to drive somewhere else) this other hospital does not have a bed for me, so he writes me a prescription and sends me home

Song heard in "NIGHT NURSE" (1931) Title: "I was Only Teasing You" Lyricist: Charles Tobias   Composer: Peter De Rose   Personnel:  Johnny Hamp (directing his) Orchestra - vocal refrain: Carl Graubr (AKA Carl Grayson) Victor Record: 22727-B matrix # BRC-69690 (Take 02) Recorded in New York; 1931 06/05

Recurring Theme: Anakin Skywalker, Comic Relief For Me Way More Times Than He Probably Should Be

To my great delight, Anakin comes sauntering over at this moment to inform Luminara that he’s tracking a sandstorm heading her way. HAHAHAHA. Of course Anakin was tracking a sandstorm. I hope he wasn’t even asked to do this. I hope he just did this on his own because OH GOD NOT A SANDSTORM SHE’LL GET SAND ON HER AND THEN WHAT OBI-WAN THEN WHAT WHAT IF IT COMES BY US???