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commission for @nyatsuma again! THANK U SO MUCH TAYYYY IM LOVE U 

And then we also just have this huge problem with feeling like we’re not “trans enough” (in our own eyes or the eyes of others) and that trying half-assedly only makes things worse/is even more embarrassing. Like ok we might wear a binder and unisex/male-coded clothes sometimes, but we mcfucking NEVER pass, ever, at all, even a bit. (At least we don’t think so, we’ve NEVER been read as male or even “i can’t tell??!!” as far as we know.) And we don’t put enough effort into it, because it’s just hopeless anyway and also we’re depressed and otherwise mentally ill and don’t have the energy/capability to try something like idk makeup or voice training (cannot do it. just really absolutely can not. and the worst part? our voice often comes out far MORE squeaky than non-male system mates’ ffs) or exercise. And like, if we were REAL trans guys we’d do all of those things??? We’d JUMP on the possibility as soon as we knew it existed??? But we don’t, we’re mostly just tired and bitter and disillusioned.... and “not trans enough”...