#bi!rosa

Jake doesn’t realize he’s bi

It just like never occurred to him that he could like boys too

Not that he wouldn’t say things

But he just assumed every dude says stuff like “yah I’d let him smash”

It just never clicked ???

He knew ‘straight’ wasn’t a label that fit him, but it’s what he knew

So he just lived his life like “yeah women great, I’m straight”

He just thought it was human to have some level of attraction to the same sex

No one called him out on his attraction to men except for the one time Charles had said “oh you’re into men” Jake just responded with “uh no Charles I but I can appreciate when someone looks that good”

But it did make Jake think a little bit about it, but he chose not to investigate it further

Besides, he’s only ever dated women, and he’s currently with Amy so

And then Rosa comes out to the squad as Bi

And Jake is hella supportive

But he doesn’t understand it completely

So he researched bisexuality whenever Amy is sleeping

Only uses incognito mode so she can’t see

Not that he’s hiding things from her, but just because he doesn’t want Amy to assume anything

Besides, Jake is with Amy anyways, so what does it matter

(It matters a lot to him)

So Jake reads up a lot about Bisexuality and talks with people online

Jake just thought everyone was like him

But he’s bisexual

He knows it

And he cries because it just makes a lot more sense then him being straight

And it’s the first time that he feels like he fits

He really wants to tell Amy

But they’re together

And what if this just makes her feel insecure (it doesn’t)

He’s committed in a relationship with a woman, he’s never even dated a guy so does that really make him Bi ??

Jake isn’t sure, but he wants to talk about it with someone

But Jake also doesn’t want them to tell him that he isn’t Bi

Jake is worried he’s projecting a sexuality onto himself

I mean sure he may have kissed a few guys in college but that doesn’t actually mean anything

And sure he’d let Chris Hemsworth bend him over and take him from behind

But does that mean anything ??

So Jake bottles it up

And he bottles it up hard

The squad notices Jake is acting off

He even has Hitchcock and Scully worried (“Jakey are you okay” “Jake is acting off isn’t he, I betcha he and amy had…”)

Holt gives him a few days off in hopes that It’ll get Jake out of his head

(It doesn’t work)

Terry tries his best to get Jake to make a joke

Charles knowingly makes sex innuendos and Jake doesn’t even laugh

Amy says something that warrants a “title of your sextape” from Jake but gets nothing

Rosa tells Jake he can crash at her place if something is going on with him and Amy

Jake finally cracks at 2am in bed a while later

One moment he’s playing with Amy’s hair while she sleeps

The next he’s sobbing and she’s awake trying to comfort him

“It’s okay Jake, whatever this is, it’s okay”

“I’m sorry Ames, I’m sorry”

“Jake it’s okay, I love you, whatever is wrong we can get through it together, I got you”

And then Jake tells her what he’s been hiding

“I think I’m Bi, I’m sorry, I’m sorry. I love you Amy, I don’t want you to leave me, I’m not sure if I actually am, it just feels like the right word for me.”

This admission makes Amy cry

Not because she doesn’t accept him, but because she feels that she didn’t do a good job of making him feel loved enough to tell her and be confident that this wouldn’t affect their relationship

“Jake that’s okay, I love you. I’m sorry. If I haven’t been supportive enough, but I accept you. I accept you and your sexuality. You like guys, okay so do I, you still love me, and I love you. Who you’re attracted too doesn’t change anything”

Jake cries some more, but out of relief

Amy calls into work citing a “family emergency” for the both of them

Jake and Amy spend the day talking about how Jake came to realize this. About how alone he felt looking for these answers and finally getting them

Jake finally feels like he fits somewhere now that he knows who he is

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