serious talk now. iām joking around a lot today & iām smiling at the dash & with my friends finally. these two 2 weeks has been really rough for me. i struggled with my own feelings & i couldnāt eat anything for some days & tho i tried to eat something, i couldnāt because i ended up throwing up everything. i lost weight & my body felt so week. i cried so much to get to the point i couldnāt cry anymore because really i had no more tears to share. i felt so bad about myself, i felt so insecure, so scared & so angry with everything & everyone around me. every time someome tried to cheer me up, i tried to say ā yhea now iām fine. ā, tho i wasnāt. i didnāt wanna bug you all with my pain & with my shits. i didnāt wanna talk, but i wanted. & look at this. look at how many friends i got at my side, how many of you supported me, so much even tho i was acting like an empty puppet.Ā
i donāt know what to say or how to put this in words. if i could i would hug each of you so much because that i think is the most powerful way to say how much you helped me & how much i care for u. just thanks. thanks from the bottom of my heart. iām realizing how stupid & how silly i was for crying for something like that. really i was stupid af. but now, oh, now itās a NEW START. i started to eat again, to smile more, to text my rl friends more, to text each of you more & to make new friends. i started to open myself more & to put my pain aside. iām still healing but i can finally see results & the smile i have, while writing this, means you all did it, you all helped me & that iām chaning & iām feeling finally happy. thanks. thank you, thank you so much.
