I got my ovulation/pregnancy tests in the mail today! There's a lot of excitement within me about trying for another baby, but there's also a part of me that gets nauseous at the thought. I had such HORRIBLE Postpartum anxiety with Avery. It seemed to take me so long to shake it. I still struggle with anxiety some days. There's also the nagging thought... "How will I ever love another child as much as I love Avery?!" She is quite literally the light of my life. I know I want Avery to have a sibling. I want that for my family so so bad. Growing up my parents were divorced. I was my biological mom & dads only child. My bio dad remarried and had my 2 half-sisters, my bio mom remarried and had my half-brother. I love my siblings of course, but I never felt like I had anyone who really understood. None of my siblings ever had to leave their house on Christmas or miss out on fun weekend trips bc they were at their other parents house. The thought of Avery having a sibling with the same mom and dad and the same life 24/7 makes my heart scream with happiness. It's all I've ever wanted for myself, and especially for my children. Anyways, I'm kind of rambling, BUT we are going to try for baby #2! We had a miscarriage October of 2015 (unplanned pregnancy) and I am really really hoping we don't have to go through that again. I may or may not have PCOS, never got a true diagnosis with that. I have confirmed MTHFR mutation which CAN cause fertility issues so we found a doctor in our area who is familiar with our gene and will hopefully know how to help us. My labor and delivery with Avery was very traumatic, I want it to be totally different this time.
