#aun

Aun no puedo verte, aún no puedo tenerte, besarte, arrullarte y si es necesario incluso cantarte.

Aun no estas aunque tu presencia esta anunciada, aún no lloras aunque tus lagrimas estén marcadas.

Aun no te encuentro entre las tardes soleadas y aun no te abrigo en las noches nubladas.

Aun ni estas y ya te he visto, te he sentido sin un mínimo organismos, te he plantado, sembrado y hasta regado en busca de tu auxilio.

Aun no estas pero no es un égloga, no es epigrama y mucho menos caligrama.

Aun no estas y ya te escucho, te bailo, te saboreo y te olfateo.

Aun no estas pero mi niña, cuanto te anhelo.

(12/04/2025)

Esta soy yo, antes de que me volviera un caos total, por la ausencia de una sombra, si...de una sombra: por qué nunca senti su presencia a mi lado.

Aveces pienso que todos esos besos a medias y los te amo sin sentido, fueron parte de un sueño sin control, por qué nunca los detuve, no tenía límites el me tenía atada, quería atención y yo era perfecta haciéndolo, aveces lo extraño, pienso que algún día regresará, pero ¿Yo aún seguiré sintiendo esto que se dice llamar amor? O simplemente es parte de una obsesión, una obsesión que tarde o temprano acabará.

Aún no se cuando acabará, sigo escuchando su voz en cada rincón, en cada melodía de una canción, quizás hasta en las cosas más absurdas de mi alrededor, no lo sé, una palabra me hace sentir su ausencia; Yo sé que el piensa en mi, y lo sé por qué sueño con el, y no por qué yo duerma mencionandolo, si no por qué en ocasiones se manifiesta en mis sueños, y cuando aparece nunca puedo decirle adiós.

“Scandinavian traditions contain some hints that of old the Swedish kings reigned only for periods of nine years, after which they were put to death or had to find a substitute to die in their stead. Thus Aun or On, king of Sweden, is said to have sacrificed to Odin for length of days and to have been answered by the god that he should live so long as he sacrificed one of his sons every ninth year. He sacrificed nine of them in this manner, and would have sacrificed the tenth and last, but the Swedes would not allow him. So he died and was buried in a mound at Upsala [sic]. Another indication of a similar tenure of the crown occurs in a curious legend of the disposition and banishment of Odin. Offended at his misdeeds, the other gods outlawed and exiled him, but set up in his place a substitute. Oller by name, a cunning wizard, to whom they accorded the symbols both of royalty and of godhead. The deputy bore the name of Odin, and reigned for nearly ten years, when he was driven from the throne, while the real Odin came to his own again. His discomfited rival retired to Sweden and was afterwards slain in an attempt to repair his shattered fortunes. As gods are often merely men who loom large through the mists of tradition, we may conjecture that this Norse legend preserves a confused reminiscence of ancient Swedish kings who reigned for nine or ten years together, then abdicated, delegating to others the privilege of dying for their country. The great festival which was held at Upsala every nine years may have been the occasion on which the king or his deputy was put to death. We know that human sacrifices formed part of the rites."

—J. G. Frazer, The Dying King (The Golden Bough, vol. IV, 1914, pp. 57-58)

One-eyed Odin riding the eight-legged Sleipnir while wielding Gungnir, his famous enchanted spear. This image is from a famous Icelandic manuscript of the 18th century (NKS 1867 4to, Danish Royal Library).

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