#astral combat

(note ; this is not roleplay, fictionkin, or delusion, though roleplayers, fictionkin, and delusional people are allowed to interact. this is pop culture paganism. please do not call me delusional, as this can cause me to doubt my experiences and reality, which can send me into pyschosis.)

so, after an absolutely terrifying experience where my claisenses decided to lock in and sense a the boiled one lookin ass spirit, i decided to also lock in with transforming and astral combat so that, instead of having to ask a friend to bilocate to my house and fight these kinds of things for me, i can fight them myself.

so, i promptly decided to bilocate to my backyard and transform for the first time last night, and IT. WAS. AMAZING !! my magi form is sooo perfect. my cape being where i pull my weapons out from is so fun too,,,

my weapons are two guns, a golden staff with one big ring and some smaller rings hanging off of it, and a scythe.

my guns are.. well, guns. they shoot fiery bullets. they have a good weight to them and are easy to use.

my staff allows me to cast spells, but currently im only capable of using it as a conduit for my fire abilities i get from being an incarnate of fire. basically, i can make fireballs n stuff. im hoping to learn how to cast protective spells / shields so i can defend myself. my staff also has a good weight to it but is surprisingly light and easy to use. its also jangly and shiny which i love :3

and now... my scythe. oh dear my scythe. its so cool looking, so big and fun, but its so. gods damned. heavy. i can barely use it because of how heavy it is. i can barely swing it because my arms physically cannot make it go fast enough for it to be viable as a weapon at this current moment

(and i was planning to make one of my ultimate moves be where the staff grows in size too,,,, shivers)

i didnt get a chance to practice with my pocket knife, i kinda forgot about it because of all the flashier weapons lol. i'll try to practice with it later tonight or tomorrow

so, i need to train more in the astral, and also get better at wielding my scythe. i also have to learn some more spells. but other than that, im surprisingly good at using my weapons compared to how i thought i'd be !!! jumping around and running, aiming my gun and spells, controlling what spells i do and how the spell moves, etc. also, my costume is just... so cute. its so fucking cute. i love it so much. im obsessed.

now, what does transforming feel like, you may be asking ?

well...

i dont... really know. my body just started to move on its own, music filling my ears as my body glowed red and i danced away. i honestly blacked out a bit because i dont really remember much LMAO. its really fun and electrifying but also definitely catches you off guard that first time. i'll try to focus a bit ore the next time i do it so i can give a better explanation

also, as for my cape...

i dont really know it if a pocket dimension ?? or something ??? idk if i can just store weapons in it or maybe i can put grief seeds in there too ???

whenever i grab a weapon, i just think what weapon i want and it comes out, so maybe its a portal that adjusts to my desires ?

will have to experiment with it more. might be a good place to store grief seeds if i can !!

One thing that has been going through my mind lately is how different some mind planes become from human average. Plenty of people (myself not included) can see energy and astral beings with ease, visualizing fantasy worlds and realities that would put fantasy in a job coma. Plenty have permanent handicaps that render them useless by most career standards. And some picked divergent pathing making them hideously incomparable. I’m one of the last kind, despite not being able to see energy types very easily after almost three years in the craft. Schizophrenia is likely the cause here. What is that, anyway? UPG and clinical research follow.

Schizophrenia is genetically linked with autism, ADHD, and PTSD.  A quick google search can find multiple scholarly articles confirming these links. The problems arise when schizophrenia is looked at exclusively in terms of mental illness, not a magical gift for mentalism and divine worship. Schizophrenic anchors are usually tuned to static buzz or earth garbage empathic nonsense. That’s why so many people without studying their illness need deadening medications to function. When I was on olanzapine, a 33% increase in signal strength was needed for a couple of my spirit guides (Samus Aran and Colette Barjack, a spirit within Angel Aura Quartz) to communicate with me. Whereas prohibited by certain applications of divine law, they still passed information into my mind to fight demonic oppressors hired by “Henry”, my ex-mentor mentioned in an earlier post. Divine thoughtforms, power embodiments like elemental forces, and planetary intelligences can all act as attunement points letting disciples of their craft gain knowledge, insight, and wisdom by calibrating their mind planes upward. This increases potential knowledge within brain functioning exponentially. It also allows divine beings catalysts for work here on earth, and soldiers in the Astral Realms.

So how did we get from mental disorder to divine anchor point within mage-class humans? A shattered mind gravitationally adheres to itself by being carried around in a skullcase all day. Information retention is diminished, having to pass through jagged mind frames and slivers of experiences before being read again. Schizophrenics were historically the mad priests, prophets and holy clergy, since so much of their minds were attuned upwards towards their divinity of choice. That divine essence saturated their thinking, and allowed them to hear clearly what others might perceive as a whisper. The trend continues where mentally-jacketed mind planes can store different pieces of information and energy, but conflicting parts interfere in stable minds. In shattered/schizophrenic mind planes, different segments don’t have to agree or even work together, fractures barring cross-threading standing in the way. 

When I was in the hospital after my 2016 war, the demon-goddess impersonating Nyx attuned a bunch of fractal pieces within my mind to different forces. Some with in the Lovecraft mythos, others from planes far away. Some she made into angelic thoughtforms and then killed the external angels by synchronistic magic. I should mention when “Henry” (please see earlier post) set up an neural handshake with the “negative karma spirit (read: demon) Dmitri, I didn’t know its name or anything about it. It gave the demon full rights to use my astral body without my knowledge or awareness. I was then blamed for everything of that war, since I had used demon-type sex magic patterns to create a pure angel, Colette Barjack, whom I’m still power-bonded with. Did I mention a couple demons within magic ignored light!Hekate and took over my case completely at that point?

Fractures can be weaponized. I’m not going to put this in a public space tho. Cleanup is messy and usually involves mass/aggregate transmutation in the “whatever, just go with it,” category.