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🫐 Yearning for a simpler time 💫

The Magician's Research Notes

I have been hustling for grad school and making sure I have 1yr TA experience, 3 years lab experience, 2 years lab tech experience I realize I am also robbing myself of the experience of living.

Choose the meme that calls your name most strongly.

☀️ Card One

✨Sun

🫯 Card Two

✨ Chariot

🪽 Card Three

✨VIII of swords

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Before You Read

✦ Take what resonates and leave what doesn't. I am just a pre PhD student w a magical background

✦ This reading is for reflection and entertainment. Ultimately you need to change your own shit

✦ believe in my carefully curated memes

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☀️Pile One

Research Focus: find the joy in your actions

Your Reading

✧ when you do what you love there is no burden. Fortune comes from hard work, you cannot eat fruit if you do not plant any seeds. You are doing the what you love, you are learning things that make you happy. That is a privilege and with that you will only ever be successful. When applying to bigger and better things let that joy and excitement come through and you will be rewarded with the next step or the next rung up the ladder. You need to focus on the small acts of joy which contribute to your life and how every you do builds into what you are.

Current Experiment

✧ Make a list of things you are grateful for

Hidden Formula

✧ Share your joy with others

The Professor's Notes

✧ your fruit will prosper if you plant the seeds

Magical Observation

✧ perhaps make a shrine or a list of goals to focus on success

Final Grade

✧ keep it going bae

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🫯 Pile Two

Research Focus: it won’t be easy but it will be worth it

Your Reading

✧ So you are going through a rough patch which may be social or financial but however it may be, or how tough the burdens of everyday life may feel this is your sign to keep on foot in front of the other. Use the wisdom from the pain of the past and keep pushing forward don’t let the chains of pain keep you complacent. You have so much to offer the world and your rough patch will pass and you will emerge from a metamorphosis much more equipped for anything the world may throw at you.

Current Experiment

✧ make a small routine to ground yourself

Hidden Formula

✧ do not succumb to bad habits

The Professor's Notes

✧ you got it gang

Magical Observation

✧ find a small meaningful ritual even if its making tea with some kind of intention

Final Grade

✧ don’t stop moving

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🪽Pile Three

Research Focus: your prison is self imposed

Your Reading

✧ you know that meme of the bird in a cage with only 2 bars and it is looking through the bars. Thats you bae you could leave at any time. You are choosing misery, you can change direction if you are in a place that doesn’t serve you and doesn’t enable you to do the things you want. Sit down with yourself and be intentional with what sparks joy within you. What do you see yourself doing long term? What do you need to live as contently and as comfortably as possible? What can you do to reach your final form? Reject modernity accept cringe

Current Experiment

✧ write down all your childhood dreams and take steps to pivot towards a new goal

Hidden Formula

✧ self reflection

The Professor's Notes

✧ its okay to drop the class

Magical Observation

✧ dream journal

Final Grade

✧ time to pivot

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I can’t believe I am physically capable of doing everything I am doing

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Usually I am never a hater of rotting for mental health but are we fr doomscrolling while in the middle of the trenches? Ruining plans?

“As above so below”

🕯️ Before choosing, imagine your task at hand.

Choose the pile based on vibes and memes

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⚗️ Card I

Darmstadtium

🧪🌿📖

*"just because its short lived doesn’t mean it is insignificant ."*

Keywords:

- transformation

- Taking breaks

- persistence

- hidden potential

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🔭 Card II

Tungsten

🌙⭐📐

"wolf's froth”

Keywords:

- Hidden talents

- Versatile

- Strength

- discovery

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🔬Card III

Radium

🕰️🔬💉

“Spicy rock”

Keywords:

- painful endings

- identity

- unknown danger

- metamorphosis

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☾ REVEALS BELOW ☽

⚗️ Card I

Darmstadtium

Field Notes

✒️ **Observation:**

You have great ideas but no focus, you are scattered, unorganized, and all your attempts at a solution are short lived.

✒️ **Hypothesis:**

If you take small steps and gradually step to a more natural solution your results will be more long lasting, rather than putting a bandaid over a broken leg and praying.

✒️ **Conclusion:**

Girlie you need something stable to hold onto. You are several bursts of very creative and very authentic ideas. You need a real step by step process to work out of your funk not 900000000 half baked ideas. I would recommend talking to an older figure or friend in your life and getting inspiration from people who have worked out similar problems in the past. You are not subjected to struggle through life on your own. Ask for help and come with a plan.

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🔭 Card II

Tungsten

Research Log

✦ Current Conditions:

You are thuggin’ it out and its actually taking a physical and mental toll.

✦ Notable Phenomena:

Reoccurring stress dreams, cold sweating, doom scrolling, plugging into too much screen time

✦ Recommendation:

take a bubble bath, be soft, make moments and time for yourself to mourn and to sit with your feelings. No matter what people say you never have to stop mourning, you never have to get over it and you don’t have to shelter your emotions just because it makes the people around you comfortable. Being strong and heavy like a shield is a great trait but its not sustainable. Make time to be gentle with yourself!

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🔬 Card III

Radium

Archive Entry

**Classification:** 

Painful changes

**Summary:**

You feel the pain of toxic relationships wear away at you, you know its time for a change yet you stay stagnant unsure where to go from here.

**Further Study Required:**

Join a new hobby or club, try to expand your horizons and make new friends

**Final Notes:**

Evolution often appears messy while it is happening. Trust your gut and your process it’s obvious something is eating away at you. You shouldn’t add to people who only take from you and your mental wellness. It is time to burn bridges and gain new relationships and expand your horizons. Touch grass go outside and join some social events no matter how scary they may seem all good things start with a first step

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End of Transmission

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MOON PHASE: Waxing Gibbous

ASTRAL CONDITIONS: sun cancer, moon libra, venus leo

Date:06/23/26

CURRENT RESEARCH STATUS:

[ DATA INCOMPLETE ]

[ OBSERVATION CONTINUES ]

Field Notes:

I am TAing for molecular biology and neurological reseach is ongoing: chaos magic back and better than ever

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Disclaimer: please take what I say with a grain of salt and not as the gospel. I just want to share some ideas of practicing and giving advice using the medium as often as I can with school, work, and my own personal studies and practice. But I am working on sharing my notes soon so that will be exciting! Liking and sharing does a lot 🥰

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The cards 🃏 

Nitrogen 🫆

You crave really strong relationships but you see people and you suddenly get “everyman” syndrome. You just want to be liked which is so real, but you gotta break the strong social stigma which is keeping you in such an unfortunate place. Stop subjecting yourself to such an awful reality of being. Be individual your presence is powerful. Take up space, do not let people walk all over you and tell you what you are. You are beautiful and powerful you may take up any container, yet you cannot ever be fully contained in other peoples perception to be yourself. Br yourself babes everyone else isn’t worth being if you are inauthentic to yourself.

Barium 🩻 

Be so for real, you see right through this shit. There is bullshit and fuckery going on. If you gotta leave a situation leave the situation do not stick around for the plot, do not stick around for the drama just leavveeeeee, you are doing such a disservice for yourself by subjecting yourself to the bull fuckery, the fuck you and die mentality will kill you slowly and from the inside out. You know its bad for you, its changing your personality basically completely. You cannot thrive in these conditions, leave the toxicity, see through the shit brother and thrive. Get real friends, set real goals, go out, do things.

Radon ☢️ 

Doing nothing to move yourself forward is actively decaying and destroying your life. You gotta reprioritize yourself, if 99% of your problems come from one source you may want to think about that. If you are going to have problems at least diversify your problems. You need to think about what is going to move you up, out, and forwards. If you are going round and round in circles, you are not moving you gotta make a productive step. If you think “hey if my main interest won’t be good for a degree” maybe think about developing your interest in ways to get the degree, or developing your career, or developing a new hobby. You need to think about your life and your goals, you can find new hopes and dreams don’t get hing up on the past.

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Personal/ updates:

I love my job guys

🔮 Pick-a-Card Reading: Why is it so humiliating to work on a Resume/ CV???

The Magician's Research Notes

Brother its week 2 and I can tell this shit is gonna be 50 grit rough, I am fighting for my life for 4.0 GPA

Choose the meme that calls your name most strongly.

**🧪 Card One**

✨

**📚 Card Two**

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**🪄 Card Three**

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—

Before you read

✦ Take what resonates and leave what doesn't. I am just a pre PhD student w a magical background

✦ This reading is for reflection and entertainment. Ultimately you need to change your own shit

✦ believe in my carefully curated memes

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🧪 Card One

Research Focus: wishes do come true but what matters not is the hope but what matters is the work you put in to achieve dreams**

Your Reading: hoping is not even step 1

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Current Experiment: start asking mentors for advice on where to start

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Hidden Formula: making mistakes is ok

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The Professor's Notes: for emotional fulfillment you need to put real effort in. Anything worth doing takes work. The work can be overwhelming and its easy to loose sight of your passions when it becomes to say the least a shit ton of work. But use this as a point of self discovery, use this to summarize and learn about yourself. You can learn through reflection and this is the ultimate for of reflection and confrontation.**

✧Magical Observation: your hard work will pay off but you must lay the ground work to reap rewards. Want will only manifest more want however doing is how you get there. Please be mindful of intrusive thoughts, you can either be your own best friend or you will sabotage your chances at success.

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Final Grade: your effort will take you far

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📚 Card Two

Research Focus: shift away from ego and run your own race

Your Reading: ego centric class mates, co-workers etc ultimately mean nothing and they are just mental obstacles when it comes to running your own race.

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Current Experiment: find places for joy, remember you are on your own path, practice grounding rituals

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Hidden Formula: brother fuck yr haters

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The Professor's Notes: step away from standoffs, get off your soap box, say goodbye to ego and confront your own personal battles and get the movement of your own goals and fight your own internal battles dude. Don’t fight the battle, win the war, these small things will summate to something greater however you are often guilty of standing in its own way. Comparison is the thief of joy and you are too stressed out about the people around you.**

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Magical Observation: resolve conflict, let go, it will do more for you and your environment

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Final Grade: Stop weighing your worth on group projects

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🪄 Card Three: King of Pents (Reverse)

Research Focus: girl get a budget

Your Reading: budget in order to fund more extravagance

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Current Experiment: you must plant seeds to eat fruit

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Hidden Formula: girl its job 0’ clock get one or plan for a better one

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The Professor's Notes: plan your spending, applications cost money, gas to drive to opportunities cost money, clean clothes for interviews cost money, there is always a shitty hidden cost in the world and it fucking sucks ass I totally feel you. I spent $50 going to a buss interview. I spend at least $50 a week COMMUTING TO SCHOOL, please act responsibly little treats are great but you are living to extravagance you cannot afford. To afford extravagance you must be able to fund it so girl get a better mother fucking job, get a better job, get a better education to fund your dreams, you must plant seeds in order to eat fruit.

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Magical Observation: the best money spell is to stop spending

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Final Grade: girl how can you afford the tuition of life with this behavior*

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I am working on my resume and CV fuck my stupid baka life

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Disclaimer: please take what I say with a grain of salt and not as the gospel. I just want to share some ideas of practicing and giving advice using the medium as often as I can with school, work, and my own personal studies and practice. But I am working on sharing my notes soon so that will be exciting! Liking and sharing does a lot 🥰

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The cards 🃏 

The Emperor 🪐

Be real on what you need to do, you are the soul arbiter of your academic kingdom so you must take responsibility for it. The best way to study is to be responsible and logical, don’t reread your notes: quiz yourself actively even if you fail, failing actually shows you your weak spots and will enable you to grow and learn. Take responsibility for what you know and don’t know, your brain is an ecosystem, build your understanding in only the best possible way. Be objective about studying rather than emotional: remember if you knew everything you would be teaching the class, you are showing up to the test to show and share knowledge.

IX of pents 💵

You are at the point of your life where grades do matter and it will add to your overall success. People will still be asking for transcripts, you can use your hard times and triumphs for your applications. Success now will ensure material success later. You must nurture your mind’s ecosystem and be a growing and learning entity in order for other successes in your life to come forth. Whats also hard is its INTERNSHIP APPLICATION SZN AAAAAAAA. Horrific, terrifying even, but babes you got it. Start making small steps and moves. Plant your seeds babe.

V of wands 🦁

Studying for finals is not the place for ego, its okay not to get the highest score, its okay to make mistakes. If you knew everything and if you were perfect you would be teaching the class. Your ego is actually holding you back in your ambitions for higher grades because you will only study in ways which feed your ego meaning all your study sessions are pointless and you will not actually do as well as you want to on your exams. Lock in bitch and remember its okay to be human and to make mistakes.

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Personal/ updates:

Im so tired pookies

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Disclaimer: please take what I say with a grain of salt and not as the gospel. I just want to share some ideas of practicing and giving advice using the medium as often as I can with school, work, and my own personal studies and practice. But I am working on sharing my notes soon so that will be exciting! Liking and sharing does a lot 🥰

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The cards 🃏 

The devil rev 🌶️

I think when things are deeply shitty and uncomfortable, not only is it just sucky period, it is also indicative of change. Girl shit is gonna suck, and generally it sucks more than it doesn’t. But tbh when things don’t suck and your hard work finally manifests you will be so pleased and proud. Exploring the harder, the rougher, the more undesirable parts of life will give you a well roundedness to your life which is crucial for development and growth. You cannot grow if you are completely comfortable, you can only grow in the face of challenge. The challenge will break you down brick by brick and force you to reconstruct, it will fundamentally change your world view and put things into perspective for you. You gotta get back in the ring, read the man in the arena.

Knight of wands rev 🍈

I get the “thinks twice? I don’t even thinks once” mentality, but girl it’s introspection time. You need to think and reflect upon your actions. Thousands of “yous” exist in this world and each of them live within the minds of those who perceive you. Do not act in a manner in which you would perceive as awful if you wish to be highly regarded. You need to walk the walk before you get the treatment you want. You aren’t living up to your own expectations because you aren’t walking the walk of your expectations and projecting what you deserve onto yourself. Act and treat others the way you want to be treated.

Ace of wands rev 🫛

You are doing shit, you are feeling like shit, life is shit because you absolutely fucking hate what you are doing. You are going anywhere because you lack passion and motivation, you are upset because you aren’t moving forward, but there’s nothing to move forward with! You are stuck in the never ending misery hack where shit sucks, you are uninspired and you should be thinking about closing this door and opening a new one. Accept a new opportunity and look for a place to end this chapter and open a completely new book that you will actually enjoy. Its okay to press the panic button, its okay to go home early, its not okay to be disingenuous to yourself and what you are actually passionate about.

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Personal/ updates:

Im so tired

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The cards 🃏 

The Devil Rev 🍡

If they can’t hang they can’t hang. It doesn’t matter if you are great for someone and their life what really matters is how they are NOT great for you and your life. How much they, their friends, their family loved you doesn’t fucking matter all that matters is that it wasn’t working for you and you needed go let that go. They cannot hang they simply cannot hang. You are a multifaceted individual, you have so much going for you not to feel unconditionally supported. You deserve to have a break, do things you like, take care of yourself and don’t put some random mother fucker at the forefront. You need to know when something gets damn toxic and to let it go.

The Sun Rev ☀️ 

I know you pride yourself on your interpersonal relationships but you gotta take a step back and think about yourself. I know you had a grand plan for how you could juggle relationships, jobs, school, time and money but it was so tragically unrealistic. This doesn’t make you a bad person, you had a large goal and if people don’t see the effort you put in when you have nothing to give? They have to go its not fair to you. I think with time you may be able to handle more complex relationships but it just isn’t the time in your life to take on such a pursuit especially if they are not seeing your efforts and matching energy. You gotta bow out this time.

King of wands 🫜

Being connected with this individual took away from your real talents as a leader, someone who is courageous and inspiring. Not that you weren’t inspiring in a relationship but it seems like you were not being uplifted to the extent that you deserved. They also loved commanding the room but not in the same insightful guidance chill guy kinda way you offered. You really value trust worthiness and integrity and you felt as though your values as a strong independent individual was being shit on in this instance. You have real skills, people love you, you are so good and are so inspiring. People need you to not be stomped on by some fucker.

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Personal/ updates:

Im so deep in the trenches rn yall its not even funny