So... I don’t think I’m agender, but I am questioning and I don’t know if I’m cis or not, or what it means to feel gender. do cis people “feel” like the gender they were assigned at birth? What does that mean? Is it constant? Are they always aware of their gender? What does it mean to feel like a girl or boy or any gender, or like no gender?
i guess most cisgender people just feel like their gender is natural. i don’t think a lot of cis people ever question it.
for me, feeling like a gender is mostly in my head. i can’t control it, but someone in my mind is saying: “hey. you’re this gender today and you have this much dysphoria! good luck!” it’s weird, but that’s pretty much what it is for me. i just feel an amount of femininity each day and some days it’s just not there. that’s when i’m agender. i just don’t feel feminine. or masculine. i’m just a person. and some days i feel very feminine, those are my girl and juxera days.
so for me it isn’t constant, the amount of femininity i feel changes each day. but gender can be constant for some people. they feel close to the same every day.
anyway, if you feel like gender is complicated or hard to understand: i made a little list with some genders that are mostly absence of gender or as if the gender is unknown. hoping it’ll help you a bit! if not, feel free to describe how you feel and i’ll make another list of options!
Anongender: a gender that is unknown to both yourself and others
Apconsugender: a gender where you know what it isn’t, but not what it is; the gender is hiding itself from you
Commogender: when you know you aren’t cisgender, but you settled with your assigned gender for the time being
Egogender: a gender that is so personal to your experience that it can only be described as “you”
Greygender: having a gender that is mostly outside of the binary but is weak and can barely be felt
Maverique: taken from the word maverick; the feeling of having a gender that is separate from masculinity, femininity, and neutrality, but is not agender; a form of third gender
Quoigender: feeling as if the concept of gender is inapplicable or nonsensical to one’s self
