big fan of the trope/dynamic of Kirk openly and insistently flirting with Spock knowing Spock knows what human courting looks like and takes his lack of response as rejection which absolutely kills Kirk inside but he keeps doing it because he literally can't control himself around him
while Spock interprets Kirk's smirks and winks as just being playful and friendly since he is flirty with everyone on the ship and Spock deduces this is just his way of including Spock into the family and so Spock focus all his energy on remaining stoic, hiding his love for his captain as to not make Kirk uncomfortable by reciprocating which absolutely kills him inside but he buries that too
and then both of them avoiding skin to skin contact because they don't want to make the other uncomfortable by their own feelings for eachother and then both getting hurt by the fact that the other is avoiding their touch :))))) myeah
