#angdramako

“majestic creature that everyone adores”

ha. Wth is happening. I don’t even know. I’m so fucking sad right now and nobody can do anything about it. I was on top of the world just a week or so ago and now, i’m in my own personal hell. I’m so down, depressed with my own thoughts. I don’t deserve everyone.

I cant do this anymore, i kept crying but my crying couldn’t solve anything. I doing my absolute best but everything just leads me to anger, jealousy and sadness.

I need help. But no one’s offering. I feel so alone right now.

3…4 days since we last talked and yet I’m happy. Is this the start of my way to moving on? I mean, i’ve moved on but i can’t move on from you like even if i dont have feelings for you anymore and shit, i can’t let you go as being my person. Maybe this is it. The time when we both can finally be happy and move on from each other. You can finally stop fucking around with me and I can finally stop falling for your tricks. You can be happy with someone else and I can be happy as well. You won’t get hurt by me and I won’t be hurt by you. This will be a win-win for us. Can we just be friends? Can we break the “You can’t be friends with someone you loved”? I’m hoping that we can. We loved each other so much, so much that after all the hurtful things we said to each other…you’re still there…hoping to be with me, and i don’t deserve that. I don’t deserve you cause you’ve done so much for me and yet i didn’t appreciate it. I loved you, i really did and i’m willing to give you up…you’re free now…i want you free from me. Oo, mahirap pero para di ka na din masaktan igi-give up kita kase minahal din kita at kaibigan at the same time. Just please remember that, i loved you…i love you and i will love you as long as we’re a somebody to each other because you’re my person. Please don’t forget about us and be happy.

June 1, 2009. Una kitang nakilala. Nung araw na yun, hindi ko inakala na magiging malaking parte ka ng buhay ko. 

Akala ko puppy love lang. Akala lang pala. Kasi 5 years na kitang mahal. HUEHUE. K.

Kahit na dumating tayo sa point na akala natin wala na, tapos na, hindi na pwede. Pero akala lang pala natin yun..

Pero umuwi ako. Ayoko na talaga makipagkita sayo noon. Pero daeff dude, pinuntahan mo ko sa bahay namin ng alas dose ng gabi. NAKATULOG PA AKO NUN. HAHA. Puro drama sa text dahil di ako sumasagot. Buti na lang nagising ako kahit alas dos na yun noh, kahit na sa sobrang pagmamadali ko lumabas, hindi na ko nagtsinelas dahil hindi ko mahanap. Tapos biglang nagbrownout pa. Natakot ako nun. Gusto kitang yakapin. Pero.. nahiya ako bigla. hahaha. Ganda ng mga stars nun. Kitang kita. at.. Nawala na rin yung takot ko dahil sabi mo “andito lang ako.” HAAYYY. ANO BA NAMIMISS NA KITA DUDE.

Ang tagal kong inantay kung pano tayo magkikita ulit eh. Kung romantic ba o bayolente. Hahaha. Kaso, romantic comedy with a twist of drama ang nangyari. Pero buti nalang talaga, naantay mo ko magising kahit 2 hours kang nganga at tinatahulan ng aso. Baka kasi pag hindi ako nagising, tuluyan ka ng nawala. 

Sana hindi ka magsawa. Sana.. itong second chance na to, worth it. :)

Girlcm; kaya nga di ka na namin pinigilan e. kasi alam mo cherry, noon ko na lang ulit nakita na ngumiti ka na carefree.

Boycm; sa tinagal tagal niyong wala. At sa tinagal tagal nating magkasama, siya pa rin yung makakapagpasaya sayo.

Girlcm; nakakamiss yung fieldtrip kasi doon lang kita nakitang ngumiti atsaka tumawa na parang walang expiration date yung pagyakap mo. Nakakamiss yung ngiti mong ganun cherry. Bakit ba di mo magawang ngumiti ng ganun sakin? Eh sa araw araw na gumala tayo di mo pa nga yun nagagawa sakin e.

Ako; ang dadrama niyo. Mahal ko kasi. Alam niyo naman na masaya ko sakanya e.

Girlcm; ang sakit mo magsalita. Mahal mo rin naman kami diba? Bakit sakanya kaya mong ibigay ng walang kapalit yung ngiting ganun? Bakit ang tamis ng ngiti mo?