#amopr

chapter 7 of a matter of public record is up, and the answer to "what if the most self-aware man in london had absolutely no self-awareness about one specific thing" is: this chapter, apparently. all thirteen thousand words of it.

this chapter contains: ✨ Charles Xavier telling himself he is fine (he is not fine) ✨ Charles Xavier telling himself he is fine again (still not fine) ✨ Charles Xavier constructing an elaborate internal architecture for why he is fine that would not survive thirty seconds of cross-examination (fine) ✨ a crazy long digression about ABBA which i refuse to apologise for ✨ charles xavier in gold lamé and blue sparkle eyeliner singing the wrong words to mamma mia with complete commitment ✨ Raven, who loves her brother and sees him with horrible clarity and says the truest things in this fic with the least ceremony ✨ charles having extremely strong opinions about people on a reality TV show, delivered with the same precision he brings to skeleton arguments, because of course he does, he is a barrister

also featuring: — the specific loneliness of a Barbican flat that is slightly too quiet and slightly too his — "make sure you know which one of you was doing the dragging" — Super Trouper (we don't talk about super trouper) — ryan from MAFS Australia (prev season - I haven't watched the most recent!) — Charles Xavier, forty-four years old, senior barrister, genuinely believing his own press — a bowl that rocks if you put one olive in it — wabi-sabi (\charles is using it wrong)

this is the longest chapter in the fic and also the one where the least externally happens and the most internally happens, which is very charles of it.

personal note: Raven is one of my favourite supporting characters to write and the restaurant scene in this chapter is one of the things that took me longest to write, so determined was I that it should show the Tragedy of Charles properly.

This is so sexy and I can’t even start to explain how it makes me feel

All I can say is 💦 I want to lick it 💦

Por hacerme débil

LocoInfantil

Gracias por estas cárceles

Que me liberan

Por el dolor que conmigo empezó

Y no cesa

Gracias por toda mi fragilidad tan flexible

Como tu arco

I would VERY much like to update AMOPR. I think it's likely it will get an update at some point: I have half a chapter in my documents. But I'm a little out of practice, and I've kind of built it into SUCH a big fic that I've almost intimidated myself out of it. Does that make a weird amount of sense?

currently yearning for sebastian