for the oc ask meme:
break and nightmare for bit
failure, future, and pain for fan :)
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for bitflip
break: What would cause your OC to break down completely? What do they look like when that happens? Has anyone ever seen them at their lowest?
a handful of things! chief among them untreated psychosis and close behind it, killing the guy he currently derives all of his safety and security from. that second one would get him even on his meds i think
whats it look like? well, a psychotic break-- becomes withdrawn, violent, jumpy. cornered-animal type behavior. keep your hands out of biting distance
and yep, mattie has. he was weird about it. it did not end well for anyone, by which i mean somebodies corpse ended up getting cannibalized. bummer!
nightmare: What does your OC have nightmares about? How do they deal with their nightmares? Do they tell people, or keep it to themself?
he doesnt have nightmares unless hes already in a bad state, which is to say unmedicated and not feelin safe. when he Is, the nightmares are mainly just unspecified freaky things that he wakes up from distressed but cant remember, or extremely mundane ones of realistic bad things happening he cant quite seperate from reality. he didnt really deal with them so much as just sometimes he was even more jumpy than usual, or hed half to take a bit to readjust to things that clearly had not actually happened he has not specifically mentioned them to anyone but thats just bc hes never seen the need to. however once he did greet mattie with "huh, you arent bleeding" and then didnt elaborate
for fan
failure: What’s your OC’s greatest failure? Have they been able to move past it? Does anyone else know about it?
i mean, he doesnt really consider anything in his life a failure, hes a surprisingly positive "bummer! oh well better luck next time" guy. like nothing really haunts him and regret isnt really an emotion he like, has great access too. gun to his head if he had to pick something he'd say not hightailing it out the window when tea screamed and hoping the whole situation got attributed to a weird dream, but thats not so much regret as he didnt much enjoy getting baker acted and would preferred to have avoided it. also he thinks its kind of embarassing
on that note yeah hes moved past it. hes moved so far past it that it makes tea mad does anyone else know? i mean like, faelan and probably other people hes friendly enough to talk to regularly have heard it cuz he tells it as a funny story sometimes. oh and everyone who was following his active longfic at the time on ao3 sorta-knows bc he missed a bunch of updates and then updated with the note "sorry i got baker acted"
future: What’s the worst possible future for your OC? Are they taking steps to avoid that outcome? Are they even aware it’s a possibility?
related to the above, getting sectioned again but this time for more than 72-hours. in a broader sense, being forced back on medication followed by confinement. he reaaaaaaaally does not like antipsychotics hes taking steps to avoid it like obeying his restraining order zealously and being legally considered dead by everyone who knew him and stuff like that. its working out great! completely non-sarcastically actually hes well aware its a possibility, and he says thumbs down
pain: What’s the worst pain your OC has ever felt? Do they have a high pain tolerance?
you are asking this question to a man who got partially dissolved by acid during sex once and thought it was great fun
though if you ask him directly what the worst pain hes ever felt is, he cant really answer it all that properly, because his brain kind of skips around a lot of those parts in order to maintain his "im a normal guy who hasnt like, died" delusion. so he cant provide an unbiased ranking exactly. as for pain he Can remember and rank, probably the time he dislocated his shoulder, not even from anything dramatic or over the top, he just fell out of a tree when he was like 8 his pain tolerance is like, normalish high, with the caveat of the brain skipping mentioned above, but hes also just the kind of guy who will walk on a sprained ankle because hes got somewhere to be regardless. however he is a HUGE whiny baby about basic burns. like they can be barely worth noting tiny injuries and he'll be whinging about it the whole time its healing. he just hates them
