#aifenn

my prizes so far include: - no less than seven space football home/away uniforms - two extremely triangular sith outfits. if i had a nickel etc. etc. - armor that actively electrocutes you while you wear it - beautiful cybernetics that removes everything except the spine - SIX SETS of cybernetic armor that destroys your dick - helmet that makes me laugh uncontrollably - jedi crop top

1, 17 and 21 for Cyresk and 10, 11, 12 for Aifenn annnnnd perhaps 3 for Morsraut?

YESSS!! YESS!!!! thank you for the food my friend...

cosmic horror questions

I'll just go in the order you've laid them out... Starting with CYRESK!

Are they afraid of losing their memory with age? Are there any memories they'd like to forget?

cyresk is at his core, the bones of the original cyresk. he has lost all of his memories once, and he thinks he's better off for it. he wouldn't like to lose them again -- he enjoys being the person he's cobbled together, thank you very much -- but i don't think the idea terrifies him. he found his way once, he'll do it again if he must. and frankly, i doubt he worries about old age.

i think he hoards his memories. good and bad, they're HIS and he is choosing to keep them, UNLIKE SOMEONE. (read: his previous self who chose to essentially die so that he could throw his memory-less husk to the wolves of the empire for Csilla.)

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(-sockswars)

I am indeed!!! :D I will gladly do however many people send to me! i love oc interactions they are so fun to me.

ok, so jo and aifenn!! my beautiful house massiff of a jedi who would rather be a protector and a temple guard but is giving up that dream to be the jedi knight that satele and the others desperately need because he is willing to push himself to rise to the occasion and try to be what they want him to be, vs... jo, who is kind of his opposite in the way that she had her childhood and training (even with Baras) lined up for her but is now breaking free and finding her own path.

Electric - …our ocs getting into a physical fight or verbal argument with each other

i feel like they are both repression buddies in different ways... jo is afraid of being a person and learning to make her own choices, believes that showing emotions is equivilent to weakness. aifenn is more attached than proper, he will show some of his emotions and admit to them, especially in times of stress. what he represses are his own wants and desires -- he wants to be a protector, a defender, and here he is being the sword of the republic. it's the complete opposite of what he wants, but he feels it's his duty. especially after fenley, his padawan-brother ran off and joined the Sith... he feels like he needs to prove his master/s right and earn his place. show that satele didn't do a bad job, that he can take fenley's place as the prodigy of the order if only he runs himself into the ground to do it... if this is where he is of the most use, he'll go. he'll grapple with the horrors on his own time.

🍰 and 🍩for Aifenn, 🍻and 🌽 for Morsraut, and 🌽 also for Artus... and for good measure, 🎂 for an oc of your choice!

yaaaaay thank you! i love these :D

🍰: What's something your OC counts as unforgivable?

that's a tough one. i would say mind control. i havent thought too hard about the plot point where the knight gets controlled by vitiate, but i KNOW it's not going to be good. having everything that you are ripped away and shunted to the side. the complete lack of control. he's going to have issues about this FOREVER.

(and then of course in the expacs, FENLEY is posessed by vitiate and drags Aifenn along for the ride through carbonite and a force bond, so i'm sure he will take that. great.)

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oh god thats a lot of guys. oh man. hold on. i need to see if i can name them all from memory they're running around free range in my brain, i have to catch them you see...

ARTUS - he's a little spoon. he had a habit of curling up as small as possible when he slept back from his slave days when he desperately needed to conserve warmth/comfort. it takes ages for him to STOP doing that, and he never fully breaks the habit... but if he's sleeping with someone he trusts to watch his back, he'll curl into them instead. Many a night with mors spend with artus in mors' arms, curled into her chest while mors wrapped her arms around him and rested her chin on his head. hearing her heartbeat helped with his hypervigilance, a consistent sound to focus on that means he's safe...

MORSRAUT - see above, but big spoon. mors was born and raised mandalorian, she's used to taking up space and doesn't feel bad about it. she's not actually unnecessarily sprawling or anything, just comfortable in her skin and when it's time to sleep. with artus, she was used to taking the watch so that he would feel comfortable enough to doze at first. they're both able to sleep better eventually, but mors is a light sleeper. a personal alarm clock, you could say. will simply haul artus out of bed with her when its time to be up.

AIFENN - he will be the big spoon because people expect him to be the big spoon. i dont know his actual preference here he just likes to meet expectations of being a good jedi knight and if that means being the big spoon? so be it. he would see it as protecting the other person even in his sleep, keeping them safe in his arms, and that would hold appeal to him even outside of expectations... so yeah. maybe one rare case where his wants and needs are aligned.

FENLEY - hes the big spoon. it doesn't matter that he's small, his presence and personality are huge and he loves to sprawl and take up space. more than he needs, even, just because he can. as much as he is a big spoon, he's also prone to falling asleep half on top of his partners. he'll snuggle if he's really tired out, but don't get confused, he is holding YOU like a teddy bear not the other way around.

SH'ILOH - they will be whatever they need to be. they tend to sleep alone, and when they don't, it's up to whoever they're with. they can cradle someone's head while holding them tenderly or burrow into someone's chest to sleep and feel safe. it's either or, depending, i suppose, on if sh'iloh feels that person needs to be protected or feel like they're doing the protecting. as with everything in sh'ilohs life, even this is complicated... on their own, they tend to curl up loosely shrimp style and need many blankets to stay warm.

DUSTROS - it is a mystery. this man avoids sleeping because he's too busy researching and writing papers on ancient sith magic and such. he can occasionally be found passed out and being hauled back to his rooms by khem val, but no one has gotten close enough to find out his actual preference, or if he allows cuddling at all. ill give you a secret fact though: he has low blood pressure, so he has a hard time waking up properly... this is part of the reason he simply keeps going until he drops. doesn't want to deal with it.

LACHLANN - lachlann is more of a big spoon by nature of being 6'2" than anything else about them. that said, if someone WANTS to hold them close as the little spoon, they won't complain about it! it is rarer for them, though, given that they will simply scoop up their bedmate by the scruff and flop down and purr until they give in to going to sleep.

when it comes to sleeping with friends, like other mandos out on jobs? well, lachlann is usually shoved to the middle of the pile. neither big spoon nor little spoon but a secret, third thing (furnace with fur.)

CIL'VOE - littlest spoon. he wants to be held and cuddled and he deserves it! the galaxy is big and dangerous and he is small and wanted by the entire Ascendancy. being the little spoon or curling into a loved one gives him a sense of safety in an unsafe galaxy. plus he likes to be physically close to his partners, he is clingy.

CYRESK - honestly if you want him you're just going to have to wrangle him. grab him and flop down on the nearest flat surface, he's a wily one and he will escape if he feels like it. he likes to drape himself on people which might lead to him being more big spoon oriented, but he'd be a little spoon too with sufficient trust and motivation.

staz and anyone you say... rubbing my little hands together.

from THIS ask game

Magenta - …my ocs first impression of your oc

as staz is a JEDI im going to go ahead and give staz the double whammy of both aifenn and fenley impressions.

Staz is, well, another Jedi. that means she would have grown up around both of them if we move her to the temple on Tython, or the lads to Dantooine. However it works out, it works! They meet!

Aifenn came from the Coruscant temple after the sacking as a teenager, wheras Fenley was a new padawan at the time... They're padawan-brothers under Satele, a littla abnormal of a situation, but it's fine, it works.

I feel like Aifenn might have befriended her. He's always wanted to be a temple guard before being thrust into the role of the Jedi Knight. protecting and helping the younger members of the temple is natural to him. he would not at all understand Staz's obsession with history, but he would happily escort her to the library, maybe even carry her if she wasn't feeling well. Help with her mental shields. Despite everything he's been through and the training he will put himself through, he's kind.

Fenley is... very strong in the force. He's awful at shielding and he's hurt fellow padawans by mistake before. The force jumps at his call a little TOO eagerly. And he's not good at hiding his emotions... Instead of releasing them, he ends up pushing them down, unknowingly making them stronger. He starts to think he's bad at being a jedi.. but as a kid, before running off with Vowrawn? He might get to know Staz through Aifenn.

if they become proper friends, he is for sure sneaking in to see Staz when shes resting. potentially sneaking her OUT to something lowkey and local. showing up with a bunch of history datapads one day that he just found lying around! he swears! and who else even likes history anyways? he's less honest with his feelings, but he does joke and laugh and smile. if he opens up to staz, he might even mention the troubles with his padawanship. how satele thinks hes too strong, too emotional. how he feels like he's failing, and not even aifenn gets it. it would take a lot, but between staz being too ill to take to the field and fenley being a prodigy but too far in the other direction, they might find a middle ground...

of course fenley still runs away and leaves staz and aifenn to deal with the fallout. this could bring them closer together or pull them apart as Aifenn tries to become the perfect padawan for satele to. Make up for Fenley leaving? To show her she isn't a bad master? It's always about other people's feelings with Aifenn, never his own... He'll become a knight instead of a temple guard because he thinks it'll prove to Satele that she didn't choose wrong with fenley or by taking him in. He'll do it and he'll push himself to be the best. whether Staz is there or not... that's up to her.

Plum - …my oc buying your oc a gift

Staz and Sh'Iloh, perhaps?

They have a similar upbringing insofar as being too ill to fight. Sh'Iloh is just swamped with visions constantly that are very hard on their body. If they fiight, they literally have to drag their body around with the force, which inevitably ends in a lengthy stay at the halls of healing. So they both probably end up there a LOT as children. the two might get to know each other that way... sh'iloh was NOT very talkative child on account of the endless visions that get worse when there are more people around to make choices that effect their immediate future, but one fellow kid? they could probably manage that.

for shiloh, aifenn and cilvoe

From THIS ask game!

Sh'Iloh takes the lead due to the nature of their powers. Seeing future possibilities unfold 24/7 gives them a better idea than most as to what the best course of action is. As long as they have a clear goal in mind (often, it's helping others) they will tug at the strings of fate to try to make that happen. They are always trying to do the most good for the most people -- they are deeply compassionate at their core, even if their personality makes them somewhat distant...

Post-memory loss sh'iloh from the fic, however... well that's a little different. Without a clear directive or any idea of what to do with their visions, it's easier for them to be told what to do. In the absence of someone (such as Kilran) telling them where they belong, they'll follow their instincts, which boils back down to the compassion again. I can't say more than this because it's chapter 2 spoilers for my fic... Now if only I will finish writing it...

Aifenn is hard to quantify. Guy who is a guard dog at heart. He would've been equally happy being a temple guard. Protecting people is at the core of who he is, not planning attacks or serving as a sword for the Order and the Republic. He follows orders that he understands and believes will help others even at the expense of himself. Always looking out for himself last, this guy... Burden of being just a guy who wants to protect people when your master is a prodigy and your padawan-brother who was also a prodigy goes to the darkside... His issues. At least he won't just randomly listen to authority figures -- except, perhaps, Sh'Iloh, because they can see the future and he trusts in them to make those calls. And even then, not about everything (their poor health, for example.)

Cil'voe! My beautiful smuggler! I've been figuring out more of his personality and he's more combative than I thought. Shy and easily embarassed, but reckless to a fault in ALL situations and actually pretty obstinate when it comes to taking orders. He spent his live with the Chiss Defense Force taking orders he didn't want to follow and didn't understand... Smuggling and being a boy and literally his whole life is about finding freedom and reaching for it with his own two hands. He's not going to just listen when people tell him to do something unless it's something he already wants to do. A life following orders was nothing short of misery to the point that he faked his own death and changed his gender AND stowed away through two seperate civilizations (the ascendancy and the empire) to start his life over.