#agony...

And when he thinks back on Caleb, he thinks of him as, "softness and light." Still holds onto the memory of that forehead kiss--what it meant to both him and his Magician. Those feelings still linger, even after death. And even after all Molly's suffered...when Lucien bitterly thinks, "Those memories were gone. All of it was lost to him now." Molly refuses to believe it. Tells Lucien, "Kindness is never lost or forgotten."

He never forgot that kiss, that moment of comfort and solace. "A tender banishment." And if he's right, if those gestures of affection were never truly lost or forgotten, even in another life...then I do think Kingsley still holds onto echoes of those feelings too. Still sees Caleb as "softness and light." Those moments still mattered to Tealeaf. He still clung to them, even when others in the Nein thought his soul was long gone--