#aaaaaarghhhhh

i don't care if you think the animation is good or not, he's HIM.

he is BEAUTY and GRACE and he's all I care about this season.

If I list too many of my music and radio projects on LinkedIn, the already so fickle software industry is going to pass me over for not being 'focused enough'. I cannot, in any capacity beyond a benign hobby list my radio work, my magazine, the hours I have spent as a music journalist, the press coverage I have officially done, none of that can be shown as serious work on my LinkedIn or else I risk getting passed over for computer science jobs. Which I am currently applying for.

LinkedIn says 'don't split your network! Expand your network'. The record label heads I talk to do not need to know my data engineering team lead. More importantly, HE does not need to know the label bosses. He doesn't need to know that network. He doesn't even know I DO things outside of my working life, he just thinks I'm a good and benign student that maybe watches a TV show and hangs out with my friends or whatever else kids these days do. If he or the company I work for ever thought there was a chance I was 'distracted' by my other career or wasn't 'serious' or 'fully dedicated' to my current corporate job, or if there was any hint that I might not be available for later hours because I'm doing anything that is unnegotiable to move, they'd get rid of me to get a more available crony.

You think I'm being paranoid? I have interviewed young professionals with my manager in a previous role. She wanted me to ask questions about their home life and hobbies because 'we don't want someone unmotivated who just sits around playing video games all evening after work'. As if that is of any relevance to their jobs! If they ever thought I was involved in the unscrupulous music industry, they'd think lowly of me. This is corporate we are talking about! The same people that say insane shit like 'when you step out of your workplace, even when you are not working, you represent our company and values'. You want me to add music industry people to THAT network??

On the other hand, I need to reach out to this guy who is ex-CBC, but had a very influential hand in setting up some shows that I am very interested in. He told me to reach him on LinkedIn. I'm in despair man, I can't just message him from an account that says '[tumblr user aeolian blues' name], Computer Scientist.' He's a busy guy. He's never going to even click to open my connect request this way, which is very frustrating. I don't go by my full name in music, this is both a defence mechanism against the very same 'you represent us outside work' thing, as well as something completely accidental because that's now how other people introduce me. He was really impressed with me when I spoke to him too, and said please reach out and connect with me, and it's such a shame that I will most likely lose the opportunity to do that.