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I just deleted my old instagram account. The ones my abusive ex’s could still find. It felt good to let go. I have my one good friend now and I think thats important. I used to stretch myself so thin with everyone being my friend and recently I feel like I lost one of my dear friends to their other friends. I’m not mad about it. People grow and change and that’s just a part of life. I really do miss her but the conversations felt bad. I would send all these things to try and keep it going but it went practically no where. She’s still an amazing person and you should still support her. But I can’t continue on with our friendship at this stage. It goes no where and she’s moved on. I respect that. A lot of used to be close friends now give no response or very short ones. What things were have changed. Thats a part of life. My ex’s are gone. They don’t know me anymore. I’m still in a bad situation but this one I can at least wait out. Some friends are just internet friends, some are just irl, some are both but most are none. It’s time to pull myself out of the slump but I can’t. I’m doing well but the lows and low and the highs aren’t highs. They’re average. Plain old boring what they need to be average, and that’s how it’ll always be. And that’s how I’ll accept it as. Sleep. Sleep until you are find because tomorrow is new. It’ll always be new in the slumps.

This is relevant in my circle right now💔 We don’t always know when a friend or family member is suicidal. The conversation has to get louder, so people understand more about emotional suffering and that there is help. If you are suffering, please know everything is fixable. Please call😔 #nationalsuicidepreventionlifeline #8002738255 #knowthesigns #suicideawareness #suicideprevention #reachout #nevergiveup #imrighthere #fuckdepression #fuckaddiction #itcanbefixed #iwillmissyou #imsorryyouwerehurtingsomuch #empathchick Repost from @digbyjim - Very real, let’s keep helping each other be strong. (at Coral Springs, Florida) https://www.instagram.com/p/BoO8pSHHExD/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=dnbhyu1qau0m