#39w1d

Side note: I’ve become tired of using tumblr nicknames and I think I might just switch to using the kids’ actual names. I feel like when people use the first initial, I personally have a hard time keeping track of who is whom - that’s a me problem. Sooo, I’m just gonna start using their names? Feels weird, but I dunno what I’m protecting against by using nicknames, really, either.

So. Pep, my first babe and current 2.5 year old best buddy, is Holden. Those of you who know me off-tumblr know that. Our second sweet angel is Lincoln.

Now that that’s cleared up.. I’ve been having contractions on and off for over a week now - since last Wednesday - and yesterday B and I finally went down to the hospital. It’s an hour drive, so the stress level was high. Has been high for the past week. My MIL just finally moved into our second home here in town on Sunday, so thankfully we now have a close-by childcare solution in place. We got to the hospital, contractions were at 3 minutes apart, 3cm dilated, and everybody was thinking we would be meeting our third baby boy soon.

Aaaaaand then… the contractions slowed down. Six hours later after bouncing on the ball and doing all the things, I was still at 3cm. They sent us home. So disappointed. I was not dealing well.

Thank goodness I had therapy this morning. I was able to talk some things out, and with the help of my therapist, reframe and get some perspective. I’m doing better today. Aside from the fact that I stepped outside after therapy and immediately got stung by a bee. Universe, I won’t take that one personally, but really. Come on sis.

My parents are coming up tonight; MIL has an obligation Friday-Saturday, so they’re gonna relieve her. I have an ultrasound scheduled for tomorrow morning, so B and I will both go for that. Then I have an induction scheduled for Saturday morning.

I’ve got mixed feelings about being induced, but I know inevitably my body will be more “ready” to be induced this time around than when I was induced with Holden. That gives me some relief. It’s good to have a light at the end of the tunnel. For today, it’s just resting, spending time with my best boy, and keeping myself mentally & emotionally balanced. I’m gonna try a guided meditation later on - my therapist has been recommending them. Can’t hurt, right?

First of all, I’m pretty sure this lady just walked into the (non-hospital!!) office with her husband and toddler and gave birth shortly afterwards?? I was in the waiting room and the 3 of them walked in. Heard the woman say she was having contractions and the receptionist ask if a midwife had told her to come in. The woman said she was having strong contractions 4 minutes apart. They took her to the back and I was left waiting. When I asked at the half hour mark after my scheduled appointment if they knew how much longer it would be, they told me that a woman in labor (that one, obviously) had come in and needed to go before me. A couple minutes later I was called back, and the medical assistant took my weight and blood pressure and then left the room. A few minutes after that I heard what sounded like a VERY young baby crying somewhere else in the office. There were no other babies in sight as of when I left the waiting room after sitting there for half an hour, soooo.....

Super confused why they weren’t sent to L&D, because the hospital is literally just a few minutes from the office. But ok. Exciting times, I guess.

Anyway, I finally got to see a midwife. Things are mostly looking good except that baby is currently posterior (which I strongly suspected, given the number of limbs I seem to feel moving around in the front as opposed to a butt) and she said that its head, while down, was at a slightly funny angle, which she tried to gently correct with her hands. Still time for that to correct itself though, it’ll be fine, just as long as the kid isn’t breech/transverse I’m happy.

And then came the big WHAM moment...”Would you like to schedule your induction today in case baby doesn’t come by 41 weeks? We can wait til next week if you want, but appointments can tend to fill up.” 😳 I knew that 41 weeks wasn’t that far away, and I knew that they schedule these things in advance, but omgsh, was not actually expecting to hear that question and get that concrete date today. Things are suddenly very, very real.

Induction scheduled for this Wednesday at 7am 😬!!!

I was 3cm dilated this morning at my appointment and she stripped my membranes (ewr). Kind of regret that decision because I've been EXTRA uncomfortable all day.

Reeeaaallllyy hope I can hold out until Wednesday so my little planner heart can be so happy to be able to keep the scheduled appointment.

I mean, it’s a pregnancy blog. Y’all expect that right? Haha

After the midwife appt we walked on the beach for about 40 minutes, then went home & ate lunch, then did some grocery shopping. So lots of walking.

I was having some cramping and a ton of back pain around 2pm so I decided to lay down to see if I could time them. Ended up passing out lol. I woke up about an hour later & felt less uncomfortable. Took it easy the rest of the afternoon; just a bit of bouncing on my exercise ball.

Around 7 we had sex. Ry said my cervix was SUPER low; don’t know if that really means anything. But I feel like it’s worth noting because he wouldn’t have said anything if it wasn’t very out of the ordinary.