#30daysofautismacceptance2020

April 2nd: Post your red instead pictures today. Alternatively you can talk about why you choose to go red instead.

So I have some messages to spread with my redinstead photos this year.

* Eye contact- why is it necessary?! 🤷🏻‍♀️ I can maintain a conversation just fine without looking someone in the eyes.

* When they’re vague with instructions. I can’t read their minds! Just tell me exactly what you want me to do.

* Hugging and just touching in general. Not sure why being touchy-feely is a thing. Like...no

April 14: What I’d like others to be more aware of.

I’d like people to understand identity first language and our distaste for functioning labels. I’d also like people to stop supporting Autism $peaks. And to stop looking for a “cure”. And understand that we have empathy, we just express it differently.

April 4: Do you consider your autism to be an important part of your identity?

April 15: free day

This one is my favorite, it’s the longest one. So buckle up

(Note: if you don’t like stevinel, this post isn’t for you. Do not give me any hate please)

For this free day. I what to talk about something that I never had the chance to until now. For those who don’t know stevinel, it’s a Steven Universe relationship of Steven Universe and Spinel.

A little background on the characters, Steven is a half human and half diamond, he’s the protagonist of Steven Universe the show. Spinel is the formal antagonist in Steven Universe the movie, she was abandoned why pink diamond, who was stevens mother. And she waited to her to back. 6000 years later she found out that PD lived and entire life without her, and gave up her physical form to make Steven. Filled with anger, she was going to get her revenge by destroying earth with a giant injector full of poison. At the end of the movie, she leaves with the diamonds to start over again.

Now, some people will say. That stevinel is a toxic ship. But the thing is, it’s fiction and we can interpret how ever we want. 

Fiction is not reality, it’s just fantasy.

So, I’m going to tell the story of how I got obsessed with the ship in the first place.

It all started after I saw the movie when it was first released. I automatically fell in love with spinels character. She was bubbly, fun and outright amazing to be around. She was by far the sweetest fictional character I had ever seen, I couldn’t stop crying over her backstory. I could not stand to see her cry, it hurts man. Anyway, after the movie I wanted to find out more about spinel. I looked up some amazing artwork of spinel. I saw smut, angst and fluff of this pink baby. And that’s when I discovered tumblr. I had no idea tumblr existed. All of a sudden, I stumbled on a photo that caught my eye.

The drawing I present to you, is what changed my life forever. This was by @swrmaul. A stevinel artist and writer , an older photo. I found this photo on tumblr, just realized that is was Steven Universe hugging spinel. It grabbed my curiosity. I wanted to find out more. While I was looking at this foreign blog. I discover a fanfic that they wrote. It was called Over Their Garden. I was never interested in reading, put I gave it a chance, and I’m glad I did. The first chapter grabbed me into the story, hooked on what will happen next. The relationship between Steven and spinel was extremely well written in this fanfic. By this day, I read all 32 chapters. That’s when the addiction started, I needed more. I searched up more stevinel related tumblr blog to see what was their. I discovered so much beautiful artwork by creative artists. On the way to my path of obsession, I stumbled on a blog named @starscheme. I realized that they have stevinel fanfics as well. I must read it while I was waiting for upcoming charters of OTG. Again, more well written stories of this cute couple. But what stand out to me, that is unique in @starscheme writing. Is when spinel wants to listen to Stevens heartbeat. The line in With all my heart had made me fell in love with the concept of couples listening to each others hearts. This is the line,  "...can I...listen to your heart? It helps...". This line, the concept of comfort. Had touched me like no other. The feeling of security and warmth from someone you love is the best feeling I could think of. It’s a reminder that they are present right beside you, loving you like no other. I haven’t felt that feeling yet, but when it comes. I thank @starscheme for planting that idea in my head. I one day, told @starscheme on what was the inspiration behind this adorable moment. They told me the story, and it was beautiful. You can check it out on their blog @starscheme. So life goes by for a while, then I discovered the toxic part of this ship. I manage to keep away from the toxic tumblr blogs and stick with the good ones.

Thanks to these stevinel blogs, they have really change my point of view of love. It’s not just always first base, second base, third and home run. It’s not just about scoring with the hottest guy or girl. It’s more than that. It’s the feeling of comfort and security with them. You can have fun and be yourself around the. They are here for you to cry on their shoulder. Their your best friend, but more. They can cuddle and comfort you. Their will be problems put you can face them together. The feeling of listening to the beat of your partner’s heart, it’s so comforting. Their heart beats for you and only you. It would have to be the best feeling in the world. The embrace of you and them together. But, I still yet to experience that sort of feeling. One day I will, but in the meantime. I’ll just enjoy being a single Pringle.😆

So to this day, all I do is like and comment on stevinel drawing and read stevinel fanfics. I would have to say that the stevinel community is so kind and welcoming. I could just name all of my favorite ones. But that would be a long list. So to all stevinel shipper, you are unique and amazing. Don’t let hate stop you from doing what your heart desires. Because the community is here to back you up.

Have an amazing week everyone, stay safe and wash your hands. 😀👍🏻

Day 1: Introduce yourself

Hello, I’m Dae and I’m 27 years old. I’m asexual, agender, atheist, and apparently I just keep collecting descriptors that start with A.

I’ve been writing fanfiction for about 19 years now and I think about writing/my fics constantly even if I have writer’s block. Right now my writing has hit the pinnacle of absurdly self-indulgent and I am loving it. I’ve never been big into video games, but I get obsessed with number games - suduko, incremental games, clickers, buying and selling mechanics, etc (flash games). I watch a lot of youtube in my spare time, especially beauty community drama, commentary channels, iconic legends like jenna marbles and simply nailogical, and true crime and conspiracy theories. I love myths/folklore and used to be a huge paranormal buff. I have a lot of books on witchcraft and tarot but I always considered myself secular even when “practicing”. It’s just very interesting to me, and now I at least apply the knowledge in my writing, when I can. Particularly love spells, because a subtle love spell joke always cracks me up. Sometimes the best joke is one only you get and that’s valid as hell. :’) 

April 30: What would you like your final message of Autism Acceptance Month to be?

I'd just like to say something that should be common sense: autistic people, like all people, have both their own struggles and their own strengths. Our autism is a part of both, and it can't be truly separated from us. Understanding and accepting this is what autism acceptance means, and it means a lot to us if someone makes an effort to learn about autism. (At least, it does to me.)

April 2: Post your red instead selfie today! Alternatively, you could talk about why you choose to go redinstead and what it means to you.

I don't like taking selfies so a drawing will have to do ^w^'