I’m writing after so long, but wow this brings back so many memories from Grade 10  :’’

The whole city is shut, I’ve never seen Bangalore this empty and quiet. In a way, it’s so peaceful and calming. I can actually see more stars in the sky, and the lake is so much more beautiful in the morning. It’s terribly hot though, but the last two days have been rainy in the evenings. The smell of wet mud soothes my nerves. 

The last 7 ish days have been worse than usual. I’m drowning in self doubt and I feel like I’m stuck, if you know what i mean. The meds seem to have lost their potency, and I cant even go back to the doc anytime soon. I’m losing my mind sitting at home, I was supposed to start studying over a week ago but I cant bring myself to do that. My sleep schedule-i don’t have one anymore. Will this get better? We’re always told that everything is temporary, but the things I want permanently in my life seem to be going away, the good stuff, not this. 

On the other hand, I started watching The Office and I LOVE IT. It keeps my mind off of things, I’m on the fourth season, and i started watching 5 days ago. I’m hooked!!! 1010 recommend. Last night was so much fun too. Nidhi, Shati, Sharon, Deepu and I video called after ages, it was so comforting, it brought back so much. We all really are still the same, I hadn’t realized that until Nid said it. And that’s okay I guess, because I know for a fact that we’ve all grown in our own ways too. 

The Weeknd’s album is so good. It’s so dark and raw, It gives me the chills. My song for this week is Escape From LA. Pleaseee go listen to it if you haven’t already! 

I hope I get some work done the rest of this week, and I hope this virus goes away soon, I’m so over it.

I’d forgotten how good this feels man, just being able to put up random stuff for everybody and nobody to read <3 I can’t wait to do it again