#053117

Not much happened today. I sort of had a busy day and honestly it didn’t seem like we spoke much at all. It didn’t seem like it was enough but we spoke a good amount and if anything at least i didn’t have to be without you the whole day.

It happened today if you want to be technical. But it was planned ever since I realized I loved you and it was taking effect a day before. I was busy all day and I hardly talked to you, part of it was because I simply couldn’t get a hold of my phone and the other was because I knew as soon as I open our text thread I would want to spill everything to you.

I don’t know that I ever stopped thinking about how crazy this was, my mind constantly reminding me that I was overstepping and I was bound to crush all the good things that came with you but my heart said this is what I wanted and I should do it. Obviously my heart won, I suppose it’s a good thing I let it. I’ve never done this, I’ve never had the desire to or been in the situation to do so and I had frankly no clue as to what I was doing. It was like the words spoke themselves when we were sitting under the stars, the chilly breeze hitting us and my love for you and the night sky overwhelming me.

I felt like the shining stars were advising me on how to ask you. With each gleam they seemed to give me little tips and tricks, they told me what kind of words to use and how I should exert confidence. They were really helpful and that is why they brought me to tears, because I think they know how much I love you and how much I wanted this. They helped me and they made sure the lights were just right for the moment we shared. If i had not rambled so much beforehand about colors and feelings and my day then I might have had more to say that was not repetition. I had no idea what to expect but I was preparing for a no because this seemed crazy still, I am not the wisest. I let myself be guided by feelings and the ones I have for you cannot even control themselves.