Apr 14
seasonal depression ended (spent an hour walking from work to get #nondrowsy allergy meds (20 minutes) and then home (another 20 minutes) and i feel so full of joy and laughter and love because the sun was out and there were flowers and i dont need to wear 900 layers and pants anymore)
#and then in an hour i will walk 5 minutes to my friends' house bc they are back and we will have dinner and watch tv and talk#and i think i will miss this city and its sun and its lake and its flowers and the people it has given me and their cats#i will miss it like i miss dilli and standing on the overpass bridge of the metro station near my hostel at 9pm w the people i loved them#*then#but dilli is not home and this city is not home. and neither is the city i was born and raised in#and i will move to a city w beaches and there will be new people i will love there and maybe it will not be home either#but maybe i will get to pretend it is longer than i have gotten to pretend here is#and maybe. just maybe. if i pretend long enough i will be able to make it *be* home#but i will miss this city when i leave here. i will miss the patches of time it has felt like home#i will miss the way the sun shines on the people i love here and i will miss how looking at them feels like holding a flower#fari.txt#photos of flowers hashtag skirtoftheday bc it doesnt show my face and i love being able to wear skirts again bc it's warm enough
