Ou alors, tu vas voir les gays?

Mea Culpa [frank lampard/jude bellingham, rated M]

I hate it!

No, this isn't about feeling pressure to create something for someone else. I love writing! It's a part of how I define myself since I realized I could write down the sort of thing I'd want to read. But it was also my primary communication tool. A primitive form of assistive technology in a certain way. These days I am so much better at comfortably communicating. Amazing right? Yes, but now there's nothing left to say. No urgency.

Just like losing my major dissociative episodes changed my writing style so it's significantly less descriptive. I don't even see the world that way anymore. Like some kind of badass 1960s kitchen appliance that could never exist again, I couldn't figure out how to write that way again even if I tried.

I guess it hasn't helped that 2026 has been really, really dismal. Not in that major life events sense but just relentless bullshit over and over. And as soon as it feels like I'm getting some well deserved peace, some truly demonic shit I could never have expected pops out of nowhere.

fleetwood mac insanely 80s album tango in the night: big love, seven wonders, tango in the. night (mostly for the EPIC 80s guitar solo at the end) (of course, little lies and everywhere are classics but i didn't know what album they came from lol)

going down - freddie king

run through the jungle - ccr (i am...Not a fan of theirs at all...john fogerty's fake accent is irritating as fuck among other things...but this song is alright)

then came the last days of may - blue öyster cult

nightshift - commodores (dad recommendation...neither of us is typically into this sound but he sent this to me multiple times lol. this is some top quality 80s production!)

i never liked UK rap before but somehow stumbled upon SKEPTA in an unrelated youtube video and i like his whole vibe? what can i say

dile, cuéntale - claudio morán

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the entire fleetwood mac Rumours album...the highlight is songbird (could this be...the best song ever? maybe?), but it's such a good comfort album

since i've been loving you - led zeppelin