#{bitter}

never thought i’d see “yuuji” and “bum” in the same sentence, but can we really be surprised considering how this fandom treats megumi and yuuta?

i do have thoughts about yuuji and his character's direction, and the summary of it is that this is tragic. i feel solemn and hurt and worried knowing this is where his life has led him. i don't see where he is and feel angry; i'm sad. i think a lot of people are coming down too hard on him, and this sort of stems from the rising culture of needing to Find Something wrong in order to justify a person not liking it. there's a lot of nuance and layers to his character that made him turn out the way that he is, but all of that gets tossed aside when it comes to agenda and Not Liking something. like, i can understand why people are upset with yuuji right now, and i can understand being sad or mad about the story so far and what this has done to his character.

BUT that doesn't make yuuji a horrible person. his actions are deplorable right now, don't get me wrong, and it is wrong of him to sit this out and let these burdens fall onto the okkotsu kids, but the question is WHY. why is he doing this? what has led him to feel this way?

yuuji's loneliness is PROMINENT here. we know that some people from his time have died, and some are still alive, yet he's still so detached and uncaring, and the question people should be asking is WHY.

his ideals have shifted so drastically, and we know that he's struggling with loss and grief, but that's what makes it tragic. yuuji is not acting out of malice or true apathy. he has lost all HOPE. i think the issue is that he cares too much and is trying to overcorrect.

i think the biggest thing, however, is that this isn't something that someone can just talk out of him. he needs a push, a reason, something tangible to hold onto to bring him back to reality. his mourning has twisted his ideas of what gojo wanted for him and the future.

yuuji thinks that he shouldn't become a safety net or a god-like figure in jujutsu society, and he's right at that. gojo didn't want that either. he didn't want someone to have to stand alone at the top, but the key difference is that he didn't want ANYONE to stand alone at ALL.

with where yuuji's character is going, all i can really see is a tragic, mournful character. someone who has lost themselves to despair and loneliness, because they have no hope to fulfill even they're most simplest wish and desire:

yuuji is already a character ridden with intense guilt, carrying the weight of every single death following sukuna's reincarnation from chapter one. so, i think it makes sense that all of that builds over time, accumulating until he realizes that he can't die.

as far as he knows, he will NEVER find peace, and at what point does that shift into apathy? maybe even bitter resentment? something like, "this is what being involved has brought me, so i will no longer involve myself."

i have my own, personal gripes about yuuji's character and where modulo is going. decisions that i'm not a fan of and characters (megumi) i'm still waiting to hear about. but objectively, this is beautiful writing. it adds a lot of depth and tragedy to a beloved character, and i'm interested to see where this'll take him moving forward. this is a side of yuuji that we've never really seen before, and it's sad that his happiest ending would be death. that being said, i'm left wondering why it had to be this way. what led him here? and ultimately, why gege went down this path. we won't really know until we reach the end of the story, so i'm still holding my breath, but all in all, i'm just saddened for him. i'm mourning for him. yuuji then and yuuji now is such a jarring comparison. i just want him to be happy <//3