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dmsp was like those old movies that were absolutely stunning and had a really captivating sense of magic and color that we cant really capture today and then you google it and the wikipedia reads out how the filming killed like 30 people and permanently wounded 6 others

STOP PUTTING THAT TRANSPHOBE ON MY DASHBOARD

so day one of the death game you get approached by this girl who's psychosexually obsessed with your red life self and the guy who runs the death game. and they say hey we want you specifically for our evil villain team. of course you agree because all you want is to be wanted, and you have practice from that one time when everyone told you you were evil and dangerous and you went with it because no one would touch you so what else could you do. anyway you complain a little about them choosing a notoriously ugly block as the next major addition to the base, so they react by framing you as their moody teenage daughter (you're all about the same age) and implying that you're not really a full part of the team, you're kind of off on your own. then they get drafted into a secret murder club without you and kill eight people right in front of you and you defend them fiercely without having any idea they were completely guilty. after that they promise to do better and go right back to their bullshit. but hey at least they freak the fuck out and get really possessive any time they perceive a threat against you! clearly they care! so after five sessions of this bullshit and you occasionally sneaking out to catch a break only for them to complain about you disappearing all the time, now there's reds on the server and traps everywhere. your one teammate gets the curse and sets up a trapped chest and your other teammate accidentally triggers it with you standing on there, and you die. you decide to gtfo of there and go exploring to destress, but you're so anxious and wound up that you end up dying twice to other traps, and they beg you to come home but you're so overwhelmed and for some reason you can't explain, you'd literally rather be anywhere else than home. you can't stand it there. you meet back up with your team and then some guy blows you all up, and now you're red. and your teammates are so happy you're red. all they've wanted is for you to go red and kill people for them. and all you want is to be wanted so you pretend to be excited even though you've lost four fucking lives and you're a miserable anxious wreck. they send you out to kill the guy that just blew you up with no fucking armor on, like they specifically say to take off all your armor, and you listen because all you've ever fucking wanted in your entire life is to be wanted, and you fucking die alone in the woods because you weren't wearing any armor. your worst placement of any season by a MILE. somehow despite all the shit you've been through you consistently managed to be the best ranking player and best teammate of anyone in the series but all of that went straight down the toilet and no one had anything to say about it besides the guy who had a messy breakup with your teammates. what an unexplainable unexpected tragedy. crazy how this shit happens

expanding on this the bottom tier is very much the starter vamps being unwilling to help rather than incapable. the lack of knowledge is the tier above them (also I agree that both of the writers would have skewed ideas of what constitutes as medical care), while the starter vamps are just the worst people to have at your side when you're bleeding out. owen would monologue about human frailty and how no one helped him when he was human so why should he do anything for you and watch you bleed out. scott would take advantage of the open wound and drain you dry and then blame you for getting turned

at the end of the day my take on mcyts enforcing boundaries for depictions of their characters is that it's insane because no one would ever accept this from another piece of media. can you imagine if the writers of tv shows or movies came forward and said you cannot depict their stories' characters in romantic situations? if a broadway actor said you cannot draw the character they play involved with another character because the actor is dating someone irl? if benedict cumberbatch had publicly stated you can't write bbc sherlock smut? they'd be the subject of public ridicule for WEEKS

ok so listwn up. what you don't want to be, when you're a fan of someone, is Parasocial. now let me explain to you what this means. parasocial is when you're really weird about someone. what does that mean? oh basically like when you can't be normal about them. ok come on you're just being obtuse at this point. what it means, is, when you're acting gross

I find myself increasingly frustrated with the lack of understanding of power dynamics in mcyt. fans are constantly bombarded with reminders not to be parasocial, but rarely is any such energy spared for the streamers who encourage and indeed rely on the fan behaviour in question (their careers would in fact not exist without parasocial relationships, as those are the foundation of the genre). the content creators hold all* the power in this dynamic; it is not an equal playing field, and they should be held to higher standards than their audiences. but it is, of course, much easier to punch down or even laterally at a fan who’s a bit too enthusiastic about a streamer’s personal life or relationships than it is to point out that the streamer in question is the one sharing intimate details about their offline life with their audience, often to garner sympathy or support (financially, even!). ceterum censeo “parasocial” does not mean “overly invested” and imo it should be mandatory to read the original paper on parasocial relationships before using the term in a negative sense

I will admit it’s been very vindicating seeing people criticise legundo for defending how pyro was threatening to stalk and harass his own fans, because I have disliked legundo ever since that one time he quote-retweeted a 15yo to call them an abuser (for the crime of saying it’s fine to write stuff that breaks ccs’ rules as long as the ccs don’t see it) and then, upon being informed that said teenager was receiving harassment and death threats as a result, doubled down by saying that hopefully this would serve as “an important life lesson.”

this is (part of) what I mean when I say the whole “boundaries” shit is a consent issue. “if you don’t want me to hurt you, don’t do this thing I don’t approve of” is not an acceptable term to set in an interpersonal relationship, much less one where you as the creator hold all* of the power and the fans have little to none. don’t wear that short skirt or that low-cut top, and so on. it’s victim-blaming. there is no world in which it is appropriate for ccs to endorse or support the harassment of children. at least in my opinion

ccs talk about fandom "boundary-breaking content" like how people talk about "shark-infested waters". girl that's their House.

this is the level of ethical haterism i aspire to reach and to emulate. inspirational

the thing many people here do not understand about men is that sometimes when a man does lots of gay things in public it is actually evidence that he is fully heterosexual

in a group of men jokingly kissing each other, the gayest one is the guy who refuses to participate

you can tell scott smajor genuinely thinks he deserves to live