The Daily Oink

I have a boyfriend and for the most part he is a wonderful guy. Totally sweet, hard working, HUNG, handsome. We've been seeing each other for about 3-4 months, and that whole time we chose to wait to fuck, which I don't usually do. Im a big fan of fucking when you first meet Anyway, We recently fucked for the first time and it was awful. First off, I felt like I had to convince him to fuck me. In the past, ive noticed that he doesn't take much interest in my ass/hole. ive sent pics and vids, for which ive gotten no response. When we make out, he doesn't even go near my ass. No grabbing, no anything. So when we went to fuck, it was like he agreed begrudgingly. 

Anyway, he gets the condom, starts to go in and just kinda blandly goes in and out , so I start to push back and fuck myself on his dick. We go on like this for about 5 minutes, never really finding a rhythm or at least in my case pleasure. After about 5 minutes he kinda grunts and says he came and pulls out, takes the condom off and hands it to me. HERES THE KICKER, the condom is bone dry.  HE DIDNT FUCKING CUM!!! 

After, as we’re getting dressed, I tell him that next time he should nt be afraid to be more rough, and that maybe we could try some kinky things i.e. choking, watersports, maybe even some spankling, to which he responded with incredible disgust. He continued by saying that he isn't really open to trying those things and that was the end of the conversation.

SOOOOO...im left there to sit and think about what the fuck just happened. First off, for a guy with such a gorgeous dick, he didn't how to use it, and didn't seem to have any interest in learning how to. Secondly, he faked cumming, and lastly he kink shamed me.

I bring all this up because im unsure about what to do. As I said, for the most part he is absolutely wonderful, but for me not being sexually compatible is a BIG deal. Its taken me years to come into my own sexually, and to become comfortable with nastier side, I don't wanna a good thing for what seems like a surface issue, but at the same time I think this could lead to bigger problems down the road.