Sestina I wrote called Get Away Car
I heard through the grape-vine that you called me a thimble,
Because I am guarded and small.
But I bet that you think you are a mountain.
I could agree, big, stubborn and cold.
I thought I had finally found love somewhere in your hair
But I really found it in the drivers seat of my car.
After the break-up I spent 14 hours in my car.
I never felt so much like a thimble,
Driving in my tiny silver car, my head lighter without you and my hair.
The mid-west made me feel very small
As I tried my hardest to get into the wind, out of the cold
And away from the mountains.
I used to love the mountains
And part of me still does, but I never got out of the car.
I love the chill, but I am sunshine and you are the cold.
You made me feel like a mouse with the shield of a thimble,
Brave in my own way, but even with a sword I felt small.
To lighten my heart I took that sword and sliced away my hair.
Don’t get egotistical, you are not why I cut my hair.
But it helped knowing you liked the way it felt when it brushed the mountain,
After I fell of course. And when you laughed I didn’t want to be small.
I wanted to be brave and strong and fast like my getaway car.
But it didn’t help that I could still fit under a thimble.
I decided if I wanted to grow I couldn’t do it in the cold.
At the beginning, you held me when it was cold.
I loved the smell of your airy, light hair.
I wasn’t pushing, I had no need for a thimble.
We were something of force, we were our own mountain.
It didn’t matter where we went, but we always took your car.
You made me like being so small.
But now I am done with being small.
I am tired of hating the cold.
I can drive my own fucking car.
Even if you made me a raw gory creature, I can cut my tie to you, I can cut my hair.
You don’t control the rest of the mountains.
The needle goes nowhere without the thimble.
I thought you were a mountain and I was a thimble
But as it turns out you are a very small mountain
And I am a very big thimble.
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