take my dimes! i got plenty of ‘em!

I’m pretending that my cat is the single thread I’m hanging by, but her time will come within the next few years and then I’ll really have nothing to keep me from being as insane on the outside as I feel on the inside

And I say pretending because there is a part of me that knows if I died or disappeared, my cat would forget all about me within a couple weeks just because that’s how cat brains apparently work, so it’s really no thread to hang myself from at all

But I gotta have one or else I’m buying a one way ticket to some remote part of the country where I’ll wander into the wilderness until the elements take me and no one will ever find my remains

None of my friends and family make viable threads because many, if not all of them shove me away when i act more like myself and less like how they expect me to be.

I wish the people in my life would be honest with themselves about how they actually feel about me because they tell me they love me and that I’m not too much, but then treat me like they can hardly even tolerate my presence.