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I asked how I could further hone my voice as a writer, especially within regards to poetry. I got the King of Pentacles.

This means I should steadily invest regular time into my writing and remain patient with myself. I have a lot of great experiences and material I am sitting on that can make great writing. Especially if I touch base with King Paimon and go to more workshops, classes, etc.

I downloaded an app called "iNaturalist." I plan to use it to find new hiking spots where I am more likely to come across Datura! I already came across two of them within a few minutes of exploring the app.

My freedom from heroin and alcohol is such a gift. I rarely got the chance to go hiking when I was all sick, drunk, or strung out. Now that I can drive, I don't have to worry about convincing anyone else to help me go places. I don't take the fact that I can hike more often for granted.

I hope my mom helps me shave my head this weekend. My hair is driving me nuts and I want to look nice when the college takes my ID picture. I wonder if they will let me put a nickname on my ID too? I didn't do the paperwork for a legal name change yet.

My card for today is The World.

It is reassurance I don't need to be afraid of failure. I will succeed on my own unique timeline. Like healing, it may not be linear, though. No matter what, I will not give up. I can finally put my past to rest and embrace where I am at in my life now. I have a lot to celebrate and should spend time figuring out how to write about it in detail. I may move or travel someday, still. It's okay to broaden my horizons. Nothing negative will come if this.

Don't get "snagged" on anyone else's limited perception of me. We create closure for ourselves. I don't need anyone else's permission to move forward or enjoy my life. I don't have to justify myself to anyone when I do things that matter to me. They aren't the boss of me. I am.

Savor this moment of arrival.

Coyotes are often associated with wish fulfilment. Otherwise, it could be telling me to do the section in my new shadow work book that concerns mistakes as soon as possible. Maybe not dwell too much on the rejection section, or come back to it after I work on the mistakes one. It's okay to do some things out of order. It's not Alcoholics Anonymous step work.

Despite someone who tried to ruin my connection with coyotes by imitating it in a cheap, sad way, I should rekindle my kinship with them. They are still a powerful symbol to me. Same with kitsunes and unicorns. It is okay to use coyote candles, oil, etc. in my magickal practice. They are special and deeply personal to me.

Dhumavati Tarot Spread

1. What is dissolving?

King of Swords

Bad relationships.

Ties with people who didn't truly respect me or my boundaries. I've lost and will continue to lose people who aren't for my highest good.

2. What is the brutal truth?

Nine of Pentacles

I am winning at life and have a lot to be grateful for now. Not everyone is happy for me. Some people are jealous and want to bring me down.

3. What remains?

Three of Pentacles

A foundation for teamwork with those who deserve to know me.

4. What is the hidden blessing?

Seven of Wands

I can think like an individual and pursue happiness in my own way without worrying what haters think.

5. What is the best way to surrender and embrace this energy?

The Devil